His dream is to make me smile.

09/10/2006

my life is like a fading shadow. fast and quick, light and unfelt, but still it was noticeable and disturbing. when the shadow endures, and covers the area with darkness, much annoyance would be generated for most cases. and so strong was the annoyance towards the shadow. that eventually when it fades away, there was a lack of annoyance, thus upseting your emotions. and suddenly you might, just a small probability that you might miss the presence of the shadow. for it has become so much part of your life that it has been part of you, even though you minded its presence and have no choice but to bear with it. but now its gone, things changed, and maybe you are not ready to move out of this shadow...in fact this shadow was all along covering you from the blistering heat of the sun.now you are once again thrown out of your comfort, and then wonder why did you hated the shadow in the beginning?

ok what am i talking about? LOL. some stupid story that is cock up of nowhere. its like THE LAST WEEK OF MY SCHOOL IN ST GABRIEL!!! i mean i knew it long ago that school was abou to end, but like when my mind was about mug mug mug, i never really sat down and think my life in secondary school is about to end. i am about to say bb to all my friends, like charan. opps. LOL. and many more. some pretty close friends. yupz. and some unfrogettable teachers. and heck the tsundrum/ drem/ drim. heck the spelling of his name lah. AND NO MORE NAME TAG IN LIKE 4 MORE DAYS!!!! WHEE. if i ever go poly, then i think my life would change so much, no more uni, no need wake up early, my poly would be near house. friends would be around the west, and doing something i really like? so many changes... its like i just realise oh i am about to enter another phase of my life. and then i recall what ms goh said about us having phases of life. and then one day, after retirement, you enter your last phase of life, and you think its time to die soon, and i hope all of us would be have this mindset, we are all preparing to die eventaully. and the preparation should start as early as possible, if you only start at your last phase then you are quite a loser i guess, like you went through about 60 yrs of your life without living it the way you should live. cause what you do now, is not so much for your future, its more so in the preparation for your death. oh actually why am i saying all these? but point is, you prepare to die, because you know you will die eventaully, and when you prepare for your death, you are living the way life should be lived cause you, live it to the fullest, a man who is about to die, would treasure the time he had, and fulfill his last promises, and so do live your life that way... ah whatever lah. its about last week of school lah, you lah tsundeum blow the whistle till i forget what i was talking about.

so ok, its the last week, of my secondary school life and its kind of weird, everyone is having SA2 and no one but the sec4Es and 5Ns have recess the normal time. cause the sec3s are in the hall having examination. so canteen is pretty empty, and no SLC comes and bugs you to put your plates away. and when i go bookshop, there is no lowrer sec at all, in their classrooms, as in its lock. empty. no one in there? like so wulu sia. and this is how i am going to spend my last week? in an wulu school...so abrupt. and i graduate and then the next thing i do is sit for Os. like this is so not like its supposed to be? like you should be gradauting with lots of smiles, shaking hands, and saying nice things to everyone, but the MOE! have make our graduation like... farewell my school, i am about to go for a battle in the examination hall, and all i can think about now is studying and doing well. i will say my thanks later on, but for now, mugmugmug. like WALAU! how can like that? graduating out of secondary school and the next thing is Os, its so not right lohs. thats why its abrupt.

and LIKE WALAU again, graduation ceremony is on friday night, in school hall!!! like other schools have prom night in hotels, and stuff like that and we st gabriel cheapskate school, have grad in hall, SOME MORE MUST WEAR SCHOOL UNI. LIKE GIVE ME A BREAK LAHZ. i wear for 4 yrs liao, let me spend my last official day in school in outside clothes lahz? aiyo St gabriel like zzz... dozing off. but before i sleep, i have been changed by this school lahz. better or worse up to you to decide. ZZZ.

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