Sit still.
Still seat.
Silence sat.
In this moment, all is...
Still...
Seating...and
Silent...

...
The ellipsis was the speech
Of Silence
If it had a voice
Whispers would not be its tongues.
But...
Mysterious its first name.
Inferences its middle name.
Suspending its last name.
Silence is...silver.

Silence sat still.
It stared at me.
Glared at me.
Then...screamed at me.
SHUT UP!
Silence!

Silence broke its mask.
Screeching through her sealed lips.
It spoke. Up.
Against me.
Against my doings.

Silence, could stay still no longer.
...could hush no more.
The seat toppled.
My...me...
Has caused silence to suffer
From insomnia...
Silence, will only sleep...
When I stop doing work.

If only i kept still...
Sat still...
Stop. Stop The Thinking.
Silence would have remained...
Silent.

Sangeetha inspired the following analogy.

A level s is like a ten course meal. Each paper = one dish. Currently...we are only eating the peanuts on the table while we wait for the first dish to arrive. Peanuts = Prelims.

Oo...I highly anticipate each dish :D

Too much work, Too little play.

While playing i think about work.
While working i think about play.

I am actually doubting the effectiveness of compact extended time table...i have yet to hear anyone singing praises about it. Nope not even the teachers...
We have earned their sympathy.

I find my work's quality reducing simply because i have grown apathetic towards work.
There needs to be a remedy...

God s grace is sufficient.
More than enough.
We always have this idea that His grace is in slight excess to the struggles we go through, but God showed me the magnitude of His grace in contrast to my struggle.

My faith is like a raft out in the open sea, battling against the raging storms.
Some days i believe this is possible, seeing the sunlight again is possible.
Some other days i believe otherwise.
I hope God is the one building and crushing my confidence...
I would not want anyone or anything else to handle my growth in character.
Only God is trustworthy enough.

Maybe the deal is to let go, and just hold onto God.
Let go of all results, eventualities, outcomes.
Just get close to God which seems so much more attainable than straight A s.

The beauty of Innova is that we dont withhold information from one another.
The best student is never too proud to not teach those weaker in any particular subject.


Up is one of the three cartoons i absolutely fell in love with.
It made me think so much...about how we lost our lives to work.
How we lost our dreams to our lives.
How as we grow older...our spirit of adventure is silenced.


AirForce...I so pray i get in, but only according to God s will.
I believe wherever God brings me, its for the best.


What is truth?
Does facts = truth
Is truth an unchanging fact?
Permanent and established?

I pray for the suicidal to stop suicidal thinking. Amen.

I sent this message out today...
If today is World Giving Day, what would you give me, and why?
An Yu replied...I would give you encouragement.
That resonated in my head for a long long time.
It made me smile, and it is the line of the day.

I am beat...I am a child of God...so this is still possible.
I have no idea how the week will go on...because this is only monday.
Compact extended timetable kicked in, not as bad as i thought, but still draining nevertheless.

I would described myself as...speechless, at the same time...trying to keep my brain from spewing and bursting to bits.

My imagination has took me to so many places, though i may still sit on one chair.
To somewhere else on earth, eat something nice, do something fun, meet new people...the imagination never stops...as long as this workload dont sleep, my imagination continues to churn candy for my mind.

Each day is one step closer to A for each subject...I am growing apathetic towards doing work for tutorial and lectures...I see it as a 'Houston we are going down' shoutout.

Today during lunch, hectic for the beginning, but i found myself with ten minutes to spare...work was the last thing i would like to be engaged in...
I asked Wayne for his bible...
:D
10 minutes with God in a canteen, though not the best place, but i guess i got to breath the God breathed word.

Celestial.


Philippines, 24 nov, one day after my A level ends.

You matter.
Because someone loves you.

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07/08/09
I played till my heart s content.
No regrets.
I threw away one whole day to spend time with classmates who matter, and at a computer in a lan shop.
The best part was that class outing was at airport.
The next best part was that I am getting good at L4D.
Good = on a normal distribution owning any random player.
I miss a certain group of friends.

I miss Daddy God.


We all need great photos!
An awesome gift from God to us would be our smile.
It is commonly seen in photos.





Seeing someone smile makes your day brighter



Smiling is addictive!

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Being in 6 different places.
All in 6 breaths.
And one blasting imagination!