smile smile smile.
'how adorable they are, when they hold hands. when one sobs, the other would cry along.
when one has lost the smile, the other would make funny faces to brighten up their days.
when the sky darkens, and it rains. they would share the umberalla, and walk home together. soak and drench, they would still smile, cause the warmth they cherish is an irreplaceable one.
when they are only left with one sweet, they would enjoy it togehter. child like innocence, how adorable they are.
when they sit side by side watching the sunset go down. and how they always fill the air with laughter. make me smile...
and now we know the stale silence, when laughter and joy fizzles away cause we lost that innocence. how adorable they are together.'

this is the story of jimmy and jennifer...the incompletes...
a smile is incomplete, if only one of them smiles.
the tears are in vain, when the pain could not be felt, so they would sob together.
the umberalla has space for two little children, and the void would be felt, if one isnt there.
the fantasy of getting drench in rain must be remembered by two, if not the fantasy has lost its magic
what is a sweet when only one of them gets to taste it? the innocence sweetens their tongues and their hearts.
they watch the sunset together because they are each other's sunshine!

JANEL smile!!! =)

keep myself afloat. we cant sink in with our emotions. keep my mind occupied. we cant go down just like that. keep the time ticking. we can do this one day at a time. keep us. we will walk.

the focus is shifted....

just one promise...i just want to keep one promise...
keep it with me...when your fingers entwines in mine...
and we never let go of that hand...still...feelings aside...walking together as best friends is still more important, than the feelings and yearns that pushes us...
when feelings vanishes, it will the memories that keeps us together...

sobs this yr not alot of hong bao....(cry like baby) * cause dad side only took 3 hong bao. which is like ZZZ...hehe, oh CNY to me most probably about hong bao...and FOOD! and occasionally ppl. like my dear nephew, hehe, who is supe cute...too many stories to tell about him. so HAHAHAAH. oh my mother s side got alot of hong bao, but cant be bothered to go count la...HEHE! ok CNY is pretty fun this yr, cause Lcell come my place then blah blah, go ppl hs and give more oange and and ba ooooooooooo...yup, so travel fee is covered...YUPPY. and today is JONATHAN CHO! birthday...so who got thrown into my pool with randolf, HEEE, cause randolf was dragged in by him...YUPPY. and...lots more of eating...
last night watch ghost rider, STUPID SHOW! i watched it cause everyone else also want to watch it so too bad...YUP
ok parents fetching me le, GO HOME GO HOME!
oh not at home.... home at bukit batok....so journey to the west....NOODLES!
pineapple tarts waiting for you...

HEEEEEE.
yes. this is dedicated to you!
hmm, what should i say?

thanks for v day! whee. was fun. skating, cycling, and the day we break rules! but yay...still sticking to it all, and knowing that love is not about how much we posses each other, but instead how much we care for each other, and being there...YUPpy...thanks for everything.

love is simple, but its tainted.
love is unfair, for not all receives
love is seasoned through time, so the further we walk the more in love we are
love is self control, and non possesive, becasue its not about me, its about you!
love is patience, for not everything can be achieved in an instant, but instead requires waiting
love is filled with wholesome thoughts, to bless the other party!
love is not pleasure - centred, but instead holding each other's hands even in the toughest time.
love is complex, because its alot more beyond what is seen, is willing to wait for whatever reasons, is not about words, but instead actions, love is not perfect, yet, willing to let go of perfection, and embrace the fragility of it all, accepting the flaws, and not look for something better, because love takes time to build. and time is the beauty that seasons the love.
once again,
love is seasoned through time, so the further we walk the more in love we are!!!

sigh, this is statring to annoy me. starting to really hate JAE.
i cant fully comprehend why my entire family is against my decision to do film sound video.
dad keeps saying that there is no point doing such a course, and i dont understand why he watch so many films then. mum wants me to do biomedical sciences, engineering, blah blah blah. dad actually wanted me to go JC. and bro keeps comparing me to toby, and wei ming. thinks that i am not up to it. said," its not as easy as you think." i never said it was easy, didnt cross my mind, but i know its possible. fustrating la.
i mean i got 14 pts for R5. now i think i feel crap, cause the way they imposed their chioces on me, just forces me to want to go JC, so that everyoen can be happy, that did crossed my mind, like to shut them up, make everyone happy, ok go JC. and i know i will suffer under the stress there, as in not POLY no stress, but i might be able to handle that kind of stress alot more better than JC, so why pick something that doesnt suit you so well. oh well...
sigh, so after so much noise, and violent objections over my hopes and desires to go to film sound video, i decided to give it up, they might make sense, but to me my bro makes the less sense, and i cant believe it, he dont believes me. how nice zheng xin. that irritation is eating my skin!
alright so now R5 14 points, not too pro for JC la, i mean if i go JC i rather like have 6 7 points? get into a good JC and confirm yourself a good studying environment that can bring As into your Alvl cert, but apprently 14pts cant make that possible, or at least minimise that chance by a whole lot...i dont want to end up in JJC la...rather go CJC, at least the chior there rocks. AIYA.
sianess, now i considering going SP, do MASS com, diploma plus some added thing, its like a double diploma la, ya, but sighness, i doubt if i got the chance to go learn about designing, and animation, because mass com is in business school, not design so i most probably wont getthe chance to learn what i wish to.
how i wish they would stop controlling my life! i am like 17 this yr! they may know more, but i kow myself better than them...how irritating when someone imposes their chioces on you!
YEW LA...kor you suck!

hmm...Os was fun la. i think i enjoyed the process in the end. i am not totally satsified with my results but i thank GOD for it. yup. i drop by 11 points! well. and i never did so well in my life.
my results quite zhai! HEEE.
1A1 2A2 3B3 / A1 = science / A2 = maths / B3 = langs
YUP. but sadly that all adds up to 14 pts.
and the night before that i prayed that i dont lose to my brother, which i didnt in the end. same pts as bro! HAHA. and i dont want any 4s. which is so! SO i am thankful for that. but i wanted 10 all along until the night before where i was suepr anxious, then lower expectations to 14. HAHAHA. which came true. so ok la. but i remembered the stress i went through. can say i enjoyed it. YUP.
ok so much for my results.
i would most probably be going to ngee ann poly. i dont want go JC cause the life there too stressful. not that i cant tahan stress. but why purposely choose the more painful road? i am confident of getting into the U anyway. HEE.YUP. hopefully my batch not too many 6/7 pointers go poly can le. oh i refering to R5. HAHA. my R5 is 9 ba. i think.YUP. if count in CCA as subject
i would most probably be doing film sound video. so next time you might just watch some happening show produced by me! HAHAHA. no la i choose this cause i think films can change mindsets and perspectives. i will influence your thinking!
MUHAHAHA

i think my colleagues are super nice. on first day they already invited me to lunch with them. we took photos. changed numbers and msn acc. how cool is that la? i mean you barely know these ppl for like 5 hrs and they are already receving you so warmly. then they would try their best to help you as well? like if the deals that you close is not enough, they will give you some. yah.
now that i am fired, they like call me up and seek my welfare? i mean we dont even konw each other for one week, and they are like so warm le. cool loh.
ok there are quite a number of us. but those that really impacted me with their warmness are...
jan, jolene, joshua, jun yang (though it was his last day at work when it was my first, but he is warm enough) so that makes 5Js...
ok there are 2 other As...april, and aida. i wonder why is april called april when her birthday is in august...but it was the Js that really made me feel warm and comfrotable.
oh all the Js are christian, and the As arent...LOL...
ok when they found out, jolene was the most concern...ya. oh ya we have a grand plan. that on the last day of work. maybe on the 15th of next month, everyone will quit together, then we would party at seoul garden or seomthing. yup. and joshua said. dont have to be embarrasesd, they all crap one la. and those lines did revolved around my head for a few minutes. ya. i think they are really great ppl. thanks guys. HAHA. but i dont think they would read these, cause they dont know my link. but ya, i thank GOD for such wonderful ppl. i mean we all are so different and unique, ending up in the same office, but we overcome our differences and try our bes tto help each other. so i guess i learn not only telemartketing, but how warm ppl can be. yup. ok next up is waitering, fine, i was convinced by joy lau. so i would try that job out. HEEE...

yes. telemareting sucks. and in my opinion, it s a poor marketing strategy. and for the past 4 working days, i learnt alot on how to convince ppl over the phone, to hear me out? i think for today, my last day working there, i improved alot. as in i know there are certain cases where there would be ppl who would immediately hang up on me, but due to my improvement, manage to make them hear me out! so YAY...
ok in telemarketing... 50% base on skill, the other 50% base on the ppl you call.
if you have the skill to convince and persuade, they would listen, and those potentials might end up buying your story. if the ppl you call are downright evil, and disinterested, then too bad, you jsut wasted your time.
ok i am about to find another job. to me now money is not important, i just want to gain as much experience as possible in the shortest time. yup. so i think i have learnt enough from phone operations. and trust me, you dont take one day to learn this crap. you take about a week.
pity didnt get to master the art of follow ups and call backs. oh those who request call back are seldom interested, and usually would sound interested in the first phone call, but after a call back, might have lost interest and then you lose a customer. didnt get to learn how not to lose them. i mean you introduced your crap to them already, you are not about to repeat your crap again to them, so you are left with nothing to say, but to confirm if they would buy your crap, they would be turned down cause they no longer hear the sugar coat, so yup. i didnt get to master that. but 4 hrs on the phone, is really crap when at times i get 13 non responsive calls. you just wasted 20 mins of your life hearing the phone ring on the line. isnt that crap?
ok for those students out there, do enjoy stress. cause that would most probably be something that would constantly haunt you when you first start work.
you might know what i mean in just a while...

Alright guys. sorry for the long silence.
wasnt able to log in. till best friend figured out something for me, the computer idiot. at least i know how to ask! HEHA. so i not that retard after all.
ok i am now working as a telemarketer.
and yes they are right, the job sucks. but pay is good.
short hours, high pay, with cash bonuses. but prepare yourself for some super rude ppl/.
like today, i rang up this mr tan. who addresses himself as doctor..like WTH. so arrogant. and he went on with his crap, how ininappreciative he is to telemarketing. like i am just trying to do my job? and he gave me a good scolding...i will lodge a complain against you guys ah...

and some slam the phone in your face...how nice.
to master the skill of telemarketing is not easy. it takes days..maybe weeks. if you are a slow learner...might takes months.
i think i only can do about 50% of what the job requires of me. as in the skill la.
oh and the scripts they provide are hopeless. never stick to it.
cause its just so unnatural that no one feels like listening buying it.ya.
oh and i went out with janelly on sunday...shopping!
life been this and that way.
still trtying to write mi story.
at chap 10...those who feel like reading..let me know.
and it would be up to my discretion if i allow you to peruse it.
heeeeeeee. reason being. its not done, or edited...sneak peeks. whee..