There were moments when i saw sparks myself too.
I just chose to silent them.

Promises are made when they are kept.

I promise you, i would see you smile on your wedding day.


Why did i not know exclusivity was an issue all along, i only thought words, character, personality was.
I still think, Omygoodness, this is so unfair.

Silence in a friendship could just mean the death of one. It s like the heart beating machine, it doesnt beat anymore, it just lay out one continuous silent line.

The death of a friendship.

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I run. And I run strong.
With strides that signifies strength.
With pace that symbolize speed.
With God given breaths.

I run because He gives me shoes of grace.
I run because I know He is with me, and waiting for me at the finishing line.

I run because He knows I can.

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2010/6/19 Joey Lam

As promised. One sample. I love this one.
I would still need to edit it here and there.

And i thought about artist integrity. I found out i would edit because i want the reader to hear from me. The book was meant to speak into their lives, not just to display my ideas. Hee.

20 June 2010 Rachel Chong

It's beautiful joey. No lawyer for you. Writer. HAHA



I woke up to this email. YAYNESS!
I still cant quite get enough of the last line.

You can kick and throw your hands all around, push your fingers deep into the ground and dig out the earth, whine over reality, but it has already happened, nothing is changing, everything is changing.

I still don't understand how you being my closest friend, grew so distant, so apart. You asked me before the definition of a best friend, i didn't consider you one then, cause i used it in another context, but from my memory, we came to the conclusion, we were each others closest friend.

Now this is where we are, distant, drifted.
I have no idea when i lost that chance to speak into your life.
When i choose to share something with you, i was hoping you did reciprocate, but it just stopped there.
I wonder if you would ever read this, if you would ever know its you.

Sincerely, i would really like to do this face to face, but it would require a lot of courage, and now is not the time, but i just need to say it out here.
I would ask you, "How did everything land up here? How did this friendship turn so stale? How did i lose that voice to speak into your life? How i no longer know anything about your life?"
I found myself telling you this, You are one friend i refuse to lose.
And you ad no idea how to respond to that line. I only gave it once, and only to you.
I know i ain't good at responding to certain lines when i lack the feelings and emotions, but i didn't expect you to do the same.

The weight of those eight words is so immense.

Maybe Jesus whispered to himself those words in the garden of Gethsemane.

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I know church has this thing about only dating after 21, age doesn't speak so much as time does. I mean time will never over take age.
At my grand dad s funeral, there was this pastoral leader from another church my dad is giving consultation for, came up to me and, "Ask so do you have a girl friend already?"
I said, "No. She is too young."
Her reply, "Oh in our church, we encourage everyone to marry early, see they already have a kid." Points to a couple sitting across the table, below 30.

Still, i am not hung up about age, i am hung up about time.
Because time can never overtake age.

Its interesting how people can remove your authority to speak into their lives. Like they just decided to unplug it.
I never quite saw it coming.
I always thought its possible to watch someone grow up, i think otherwise now.
You are just easily catching glimpses of everyone's lives.
You take samples of their everyday season.

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I wrote nice stuff this week.

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One day i must look into someone's eyes and completely empower them.
Tell them a line they will remember for eternity.

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There is depth to what looks shallow, and there is superficiality to what looks deep.

This weekend was a total blast. God planted to many seeds into my spirit man, and plucked out so much weed within. I stepped into church with anger, bitterness and resentment, i walked out with forgiveness and being forgiven.

I finally knew how Jesus felt when He was so tremendously falsely accused by His captives. He kept silent, He laid down His rights, He swallowed it with courage. I am glad i did not object against the false accusations brought onto me, God told me not to, even though within i wanted to so badly. I followed His example.

Today on the last sermon by Pastor Paul, He spoke, "I am a follower of Jesus Christ."
Others around the room declared it, i affirmed myself with that same line, because i know i was already following Him.

Today i am mightily glad to see how God has used me to change and impact those around me :D

Eunice Lim says (10:42 PM):
*haha! You are one friend whom I'd always look out for in church. :)

I asked why...she asked me to guess.

Called To Scintillate says (11:02 PM):
*cause i bring God s presence
*i speak life
*i add value into your life
*i care?
Eunice Lim says (11:04 PM):
*Haha. more than just that actually
Eunice Lim says (11:05 PM):
*I'm always amazed at how you speak life at the right moments
*the friend who was always there
*not everyday, but you just kinda know it
*oh
*and there's a verse
*There are “friends” who destroy each other,but a real friend sticks closer than a brother.
Eunice Lim says (11:06 PM):
*yep you care
*you go the extra mile
Eunice Lim says (11:07 PM):
*you speak boldly into ppl's lives

I said it took so much courage...

Eunice Lim says (11:09 PM):
*Yeah! I know! I really do!
*that's why I look up to you :)
*I admire your courage

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It was really nice to meet my JC classmates again. I used to think they werent that pretty...especially on my first day walking into my class, today i thought otherwise.




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My confinement is not my assignment.

How could you say I am not proud of you? You are my kid, of course I am proud of you.

God

We always view God as Big...and our problems small.
We imagine the 'hugeness' of God making our tiny but 'frightening' problems look so small.

But today God broke that concept.
The above imagination is a ratio, like God is 100 times bigger than our problems.
Yet, God is infinite, His power has no limits.
Thus infinite : 1 is invalid.

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Comfortable silence.

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Sometimes you just want to hear your answer echo back to you.

God sometimes remain in silence even in your time of trouble, because He also gives grace to the wicked.



My new favorite song :D
Relient K always produce awesome music! Woosh woosh.

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I must date myself starting with a movie.
There is always a first to everything.
Honestly, I need to pluck up the courage to do this.

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I told two close friends last night that I visited to two different temples on vesak day.
I didnt get to explain why, was 'refuted' to not do this again.
I thought about it.

God did break stereotypes on that very day itself.
I figured out why.

It was just another building, place, where people gather and manifest their false hopes, practice their rituals.
God just whispered the same line He has been whispering to me for weeks, " There is absolutely nothing to fear."
With the God of universe beside me, what is there to fear?

I thought about the spiritual realms and their demonic power.
God questioned back, "Who is more powerful?"
Me, Silence.
God, "The one who conquered death lives in you."

There is no place His hand can't reach, or His power insufficient.

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My grand dad just passed away.
Thought a little about life and death, about last lines, about people crying.

Death is simply a transition point, into another life, into eternal life.
Jesus overcame death, so we do not dread death, but we find hope there.
We see Jesus through death.

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The lines God has been whispering to me or months.

While you are waiting, the wind is blowing.
There is absolutely nothing to fear.
Love keeps no record of wrongdoings.

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I think clouds are so beautiful.
He told me yesterday that He = Sky.
Since God is love, and God = sky, His love for us is like the sky.
Our eyes will never see the height of it, nor how far it stretches out.
It surrounds us 360 degrees and wraps us in one whole, like atmosphere is to the earth.

Do not see the rule, commandment, order...
See the heart behind it.
And you will understand why you should stick by them.
For each one was crafted out of love.
Thus why would you not want to walk under the shelter of love?

Forgiveness is not just the end of bitterness and hatred, it is the beginning of a new work, a new love.