I know its quite far off, but i am thinking of my year end holidays already, and what i want to get for Christmas. And get for ppl in Christmas. Hee.
So here is one of the things i want to get.
A chair.
Yes a nice comfy, delightful chair.



This is my coveted chair.
I think its colour is awesome, my butt is fantasizing over the thought of having the opportunity to sit on this chair.
Yes, get me this chair for my christmas, and i will give you my current chair =)
Good exchange eh.
This chair of mine, which i am sitting on right now, brought me lots of inspiration.
Yes that s my secret.
So quick buy me this chair. :D




I didnt give this chair a name.
I would rather call it Confused.
Look at its design, you have no idea what its trying to say.



I am sure you can afford this one, if you cant buy the first or the second one for me.
This chair has no name, so i think it should be cheaper. And anyway its translucent, thus it should be cheaper :)




Alright, alright. I know you all are poor, this chair costs really little.
I mean look at the surface area. Compared to the previous chair, this chair seems...
You get my point.
This chair, please, please =(



Okay the final deal. This chair is cool, i mean its the only chair that has wheels.
I like the luminous blue.
Surely you can afford this one?
You really cant afford it?
Alright, my last hope...
pLEASE
pLEASE at least
get me the picture of this chair...
You can draw it out if you want. I dont mind.
No actually i do.

All right, my point is, i think its time i get a new chair
Hee.

--

Pastor Paul
spoke of making room for breakthroughs, and accepting failure as a friend.
Awesome stuff =)

To Dear Car.

Happy

birthday

=)

These shots are by Ian...




Did someone just shoot some orange laser beam?





This is my second try on light graffiti.

First try on a take and shoot camera.

Its pretty amateurish, but its cool to me anyways.




The letter E got out of the frame.



So did the lips.



Stayed too long at those bright spots.

Its cool, but its boring as well.

The next time i am doing this, its going to be a serious one.


:)

I know myself, i am contented with who i am.

I wont ask for another person's life.


But the point is...i am nowhere near a conformist, revolutionist would be a closer call, as much as the system wants me to be.


My imagination receives no credit, too much things to say, at the same time, i dont want to say.

When God still answers,


Have


Faith


When pre-defined perimeters deemed me as a failure
When my future holds no certainty
Where questions pour in, and answers do not answer
When my imagination receives criticism
When my imagination and creativity receives no appreciation

If you really want to read this, Click + 4 times.
Ctrl and =


God, you've been telling me to have faith, i am still holding on to it.
My confidence was shaken today, i felt so dismantled.
I felt so unappreciated by this system i am in, i wish i can change things.
I know my potential, i lost no self esteem, but my assurance in my future received tremors.
God be my strength, charge me with hope.
God whatever it holds, i still believe, i know you know, I believe.
God grant me that strength to finish this year, finish this race.
I surrender them.

I told myself, i may spend a few years finding what i am good at, and what i want to do with my life, but its better than many others who doesnt know what they want to do with their life. I already know what i am good at.

I bELIEVE,

God these words you hold in your hands...

I bELIEVE.




Exhilarating



Imagination


This post is for my brother, age 22 going on 23 in Nov.

I started living with him when he was 4 and a half.
Its nearing 18 years now.

Today he flew off to Korea.
He wont be back till 41days later, if i didnt get the date wrong.

I am missing him already.
I wonder if i will ever have the courage to say to him, "I miss you Kor", or "I love you Kor."

My love for my brother is one that is spoken through actions, rather than words.
It is not one that is filled with crazy fun and laughter, but one that there is assurance and peace.

I value each hug i have with him, i can count them all with my fingers.
Each hug speak so much that is between us.

I thought about this last year, and i still believe it this year.
Silence is Speech.

Kor see the silences between us not as breakages in talking,
but as communication that speaks in subtle ways.


Joy Lau, Cheryl Tan, Nat Yeo, thanks for all the prayers.
Your prayers have been answered.

For i find myself saying,

With Love,
Your dearest little Brother.








Silence


Is


Speech


When God Answers,



Have


Faith.

This might just be my next favourite band =)
Nevertheless...

The band's name is derived from Luke 5:5 (New King James Version), the disciples were fishing and Jesus told them to cast their net at the other side of the boat,

But Simon answered and said to Him, "Master, we have toiled all night and caught nothing; nevertheless at Your word I will let down the net."^[3]

My current fav songs from them are...

The real
O child - Awesome!!!

=)

I found this on Gerah's Wordpress...

During Sunday Service yesterday,

Elder Andrew Goh asked: What do you get for serving God?

I seated up right immediately, anticipating the answer.

And he said, “God”.

You get God when you serve God. At the moment, I was searching for an emotion in my heart to feel. As I walked out of church later on, I repeated the question and answered it as well by myself again. I was still searching for an emotion to feel.

Just before bedtime last night, I was reading my Jodi Picoult book and the question came across my mind again. Again, I answered by myself, “God”. I didn’t need to search for an emotion to feel at that point of time. The feeling was so real, it wasn’t something bad of course. Not good as well. It was the feeling of being set free, like some divine knowledge I just received. I’m not trying to sound comical here, but it’s so real in my life just yesterday that I couldn’t wait to bounce around. POWER. Not that I possessed some magical powers fyi, but that word just struck my mind.

Lets’ not talk about serving…

What do you get for loving God?

You get GOD.

You get NOTHING ELSE, but God in your life.

What an irony, I get nothing else in my life when I love God, but only God ( which is everything ) in my life. Therefore technically speaking, I get EVERYTHING in my Life when I love God.

So many people, across the universe, try to find God. The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. God is a mysterious, but alive one in reality. You won’t get God, till the day you love him. This kind of certainty comes, but once in a lifetime. The certainty that you love God, and now know that he loves you too.

=)

--

Alright Class...
Who thinks that school is a waste of time, please raise your hand?
Now who feels like quiting school and really go get a life besides studying, please raise your hand?
Thank you for your brutal honesty.

I hope you didnt look stupid raising up your hand in front of the computer screen =)

I met my new Gp teacher today, an undergrad. He believes homework is a stupid system. He said he wont make us do essays cause we do it half heartedly, and it frustrates us, and it would frustrate him when he mark.
He would sit at his desk on saturday, marking crap essays and feeling super frustrated later on as he thinks to himself, why didnt i go clubbing and instead chose to sit here marking crap essays. I cant agree more with his thinking, but i know i put in effort for Gp =)

My classmates were asking to be realsed at 425 instead of 440, Gp teach said he would release us at 430. To my classmate that was only 5 mins difference so he insisted on being released earlier. My Gp teach said, "Come on la, must show face right? Want to break rules, also not break all in one day right? Must break rules bit by bit." Love his thinking. "You first day of class appear in class right, then subsequently you start ponning correct or not?"

Yay Gp will be slack and fun at the same time =)

I asked my new maths teacher, who just graduated from NUS, and specifically told us he was from VJ, a simple question. "Sir, do you know what does Scintillate mean?" He didnt know =)
I wonder how many people across this earth know this word, and see the beauty i see in this word. Nothing against Victorians, but its the only thing he told us about himself, and for just graduating in NUS.
I hope he doesnt live too far. I hope MOE dont torture these poor teachers who live far away in the east, made to come to the north west, just to teach a bunch of kids, cause no other teacher is available to do so.


Scintillate

Taken in 18th dec. 2007...
One of the best days of my life =)



Its one of the best shots i ever taken in my life.
I am extremely proud of it =)

I found out what s my ministry.
In a queer sense, my ministry is nearing a year old.


Ideality



I like Milk. Sorry, Love Milk.

So ever, when in doubt of what to get for me, get milk.

Milk owns.


I got a feeling i will be changing my solvent preference in say...two years?

We'll see then...

Till then...Milk is sitting on the throne!

This is my new blog skin =)

I am proud to say i edited all this by myself.
It was actually much simpler than i anticipated.
And i learnt quite a bit of Html and Css while doing + remaking this skin.

Simple and nice is what i attribute it to.
Adam said, nothing fanciful, nothing sweet.
Jill said, its clean. I cant agree more.

Its still not where i would call Ideal, i am not completely done with it, but i am contented enough to not bother about it.

This part of my life, my blog's skin, i changed.


Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine.

I changed 2 lives in 2 days.
My 2 Childhood friends =)

Alex said that i was a really sincere guy...
I would not keep that in mind,
I would keep that in heart.

I'm glad i was able to make that difference in those around me.


I am simply, idea fueled.

God, i want to thank you for those who showed me how to live life in its utmost beauty, they made these two days possible =)

Today...Is 17th June.

I can confidently say...I am living my dream.

Today i feel like an artist.
Today i made a small yet captivating change
Both to myself and my dearest Childhood friend...


Today is...
17th June.

And i am living my dream.

Amazing Race (Youth Impact Edition) was a blast.
Had serious fun, thought my team was really strong and pretty determined.
Our position was pretty good =)
Canoe ing was hilarious. With water in our mouths, we cant speak, and we almost capsized =)
Thanks Mu Xin for making that short 10 mins so awesomely fun.

I think my current cell leader is extremely caring for a guy.
I hope i dont break his heart when i tell him about my plans next time.

- -

Megalife
I guess i still love megalife a lot. My reflections on my thoughts and feelings about Megalife led me to conclude i have mix emotions about it.
We talked.
Was it wrong to challenge?
I thought offering challenge was first, not being a conformist, second checking on the current values and mindsets being established. At any one time if challenge is done under no intentions in causing harm, then the challenge was meant to build and opt for the better choice.

I hate dismissing people just like this...but i guess i do a little to that to my friends too.
I'm sorry? I dont know what to say about this.

--

Pss...
My Kor likes to bang his head, and imagine he is playing drums when he listens to music during mealtimes. The best part is when he lifts up his hand about to clash the imaginary symbols, and you look at his mouth full of food.

Contracts
I thought about contracts in relationships/friendships.
It is not held under monetary terms, instead loving terms?
I thought about how i "signed" a contract with my Meis in front of God.
How i commit myself to being there and listening to them cry, whine, complain, talk rubbish....
How i try to be there almost 24/7.
I guess i commit and expect a lot more from myself than a normal Kor.
Hate to admit this, but sometimes i feel like i have 1 and a half Mei.

--

The Stand
A song sung in megalife and not sung here.
A song sung when my hands are heavy, and heart is broken.
A song to declare my faith, and claim victory.
A song that brings my life into these dry bones.

I am still saying this and i am not ashamed to say this, in fact proud,
I still feel at home in megalife =)

Its been a blast for the past 3 days!!!

I would say its been one of the best spent holidays in my life! =)

Stay over at Ian s place,
He staying over at mine the next day.
Sushi Buffet with St gab boys =)
Visited T3 twice in a week.
Had PopEyes two days straight =)
Tried more of light Graffiti =)
Watched MI3 at 1 with Ian =)
Night suppers.
Ice Skating totally owns!!! =)
PHOTOS FROM IAN!!!
Met Ian, Alex Tee, Chai, Aud, Central Cell...
Glad i was able to be with close friends =)

I come to realise and see how much i miss megalife.
Its largely the photos from years ago dug up and reviewed, and the ones i saw in Ian s Lappy, plus the hanging out with megalifers this week.

I know i have grown out of megalife. It changed so much that i am no longer used to it. Peculiarly, i am pretty comfortable when i hang around with megalifers.

As i stepped out of this youth ministry, so many flaws entered my vision and perspective.
Megalife changed, A WHOLE lot, since the first time i got exposed to them in maybe P3 or P4?
I prefer the old one. Zeal and passion was widespread and contagious then.
Its been at least 8 years? More than half the original people who were in megalife i no longer see since a few years ago. Seriously, it grew, and changed so much, that i might not have liked it.
But then again, it might be that change that makes me value its history, and how i've grown and changed along with this ministry.


Come to think of it, i hold Megalife pretty close to my heart.

Talks about last years camp and its suppers, brought back many memories to me. I never knew how memorable the camp was till megalifers start talking about it. I am caught by surprise that it impacted them in ways that i have not expected to. Central 3 (If i am not wrong) thought Breakfast Auction was a great idea (Hee, my idea =) ), it was actually a failure to me, and yet a success? The failure of economic considerations (There wasnt careful planning, because i didnt have the chance to do it, oh wells, i did what i could on the very last night), and the success of feeding them in a totally different and memorable way (Now giving food out to other groups was way fun =) ). It might have been the very first breakfast for any megalifer to auction their way through.
I have yet to miss a megalife camp.
I thought about it in the bathroom, maybe...
I shouldnt miss this years one too.
Maybe...

I feel at home in megalife =)

My fun begins now =) Yay!

Taking Singapore's education into context.

Educations main aim is to empower and enrich, if at any one time it fails to fulfill this aim, then education has failed to educate.
I think the education system over here, has overly inflated the dream of being a 6 pointer, or getting 4As. And honestly, many people have been consumed by this dream. At any one point if an individual does not reach this dream of theirs, they would feel like a failure. They no longer feel empowered or enriched as they failed to reach their dream. And as for those who fulfilled this dream, have they not lost themselves in the pursuit of their dream? Tell me what else have they gained besides that perfect score? How many can say they gained more than that perfect score? Either way they are consumed by fear and result oriented mindset.
I find this extremely dismantling.
The only one who has been totally enriched and empowered, is one stepping out of education holding little regard on results, but instead how much more is he a learned man now.

So now is our education still enriching and empowering?

I like the letter L
I like the sound produced when you say L and Ph

I realise i like light, sound, language, phonetics and just simply finding different ways to communicate.
However in order for my ideas to take form, i cant do this alone.
Light graffiti cant be done alone.
Discovering sound, yeah i can play an instrument, but i need others to hear it too, now and then.
Phonetics...way fun. Especially when you scribble in the phonetic language, then again it takes another person who understands it to receive the message.
Likewise, lipreading (Awesome stuff), Morse code, sign language, i might consider braille.


I guess my gift is how i explode with ideas.
Many times i see how fast the ideas are generated, i see how i get surprised by myself too.


I realise i am pretty bold, experience oriented, and i would do stuff that normal people dont do,

Crowne plaza hotel totally blew me away with their architecture, lighting, and their seats.
Have a feeling i was the first 100 local youth to step in there. Dont count the tourists. Below the age of 20. Shared de experience with Aud.
=)


Has church made the leaders look like pop stars?
I hope not.
I hope it was never 'cool' being a leader.
God be in control of my perspectives, lest i pass judgment.


I wished there wasnt a circle drawn, between members and leaders.
Jesus drawn the line between the repentant and the hardened hearts.


Holding this chalk in my hand, i drew circles.
I defined my social circle.

I am starting to get extremely lazy to blog.
There are things, ideas, thoughts and feelings that revolves in my brain, that never see its existence on a virtual dimension.

This post exist because i thought about it while i was brushing teeth, and not when i am out.

I think i love to be with really high and fun people. Idea generating people are cool too =)
You are one of them! The one whom i claimed.

=)

I engaged myself with the cube yesterday, found it to be rather intriguing, never knew.
I tried light graffiti, honestly it rocks! We spent about 20 mins trying to get nice pictures, and we got some nice ones, with a camera phone, which is quite surprising.

I am living the way i love my life to be.

Love God more now, because he created light graffiti =)
Or he made it possible for it to happen =)

I wonder if Jesus ever made a grammar mistake.


As we grow, we change.
The majority of us retain a large part of ourselves, but we would inevitably lose a bit of ourselves as we continue in our growth.
Circumstances affect our decision, and our decision determines who we are tomorrow.
So we lose a part of ourselves just to gain another bit that makes us who we are today.

Maybe we did not lose a part of ourselves, maybe it was all an exchange for something else.
We always take in what is the best right, we exchange the not so good bit for the better one, don't we?

But does that always happen?


Luke 5:5-6 NKJV

But Simon answered and said to Him (Jesus), "Master, we have toiled all nihgt and caught nothing; nevertheless at Your word I will let down the net."
And when they had done this, they caught a great number of fish, and their net was breaking.


He made a decision, and that changed his life, because he gave up his remaining strength to see that miracle.

Ready to see your miracle?

I shall flush things out of my system now.
I have a lot of rubbish to do.
Light graffiti, writing, piano scores, theory and sight reading homework, school work, PW = interviews to carry out, finishing a few books. Thats enough to take up my whole holiday.
There is more i want to do, but i will just let time flow and carry things through.

For fear of never doing this, i shall finally blog about Pre U sem, and upload de photos.
Its been a blast in that 5 days, and i dont regret going, in fact am enriched.


Pre U sem photos
Disclaimer: My hair ruined all the photos.


One of the many card games that i played during Pre U sem.
Dai di.



Me with ASC(I) Scarf



Charvi/Chubby with my Tie



Stanley and Me in National JC blazer.



Brian at the right. Stanley ready.



I think i see clearer that way.



Charvi's drawing. On IB. Photo taken by Stanley.



I think i look gay.
No, i am.
Got to wear SP Blazer...Mm...
Anyway Ken s a nice guy, he aint the typical Sp student i know.


Sandcastle Challenge!

Dont you think that s cute?



Done by professionals.



F1 Race car.



Thats the theme for Pre U sem.



Theme hospital?



Injection? Anyone?
I think its as long as me. Gosh.



This plane is huge!
Look at the legs at the edges, you will have a better idea.

Panel discussion!

Some girl sitting in front of me, sleeping during a panel discussion.
She wakes up and clap every time an applause is heard, and then goes back to sleep.



The girl besides that girl. She shakes from side to side.



Innovian. Shall not say her name. Loll.
All 3 girls are from the same group, sitting side by side.



Dont you think the Vj girl look quite good in that pose?
She was apparently sleeping, not thinking. But maybe deep in dreaming.



Yes it was the final day, and everyone sleeps, with their blazers on.
Definitely on the floor.


They look like people who got killed in war or something.
Laying side by side.



I aint a pervert, but his posture really suggests his enjoyment on sleeping off the floor.



Camwhoring. My lame idea of what we can do with the phone.
Jessica (Far left) - Quarreling over the phone.
Me - Using the phone as a shaver.
Sheryl - Trying to bite the phone open.
Elvina - Trying not to laugh as she dials her phone. Apparently the idea was to press vigorously on the key pad as its spoilt.


Idea taken from Luke Ham.
Maybe one day you all should try it.
Frown and smile at the same time.
You will look somewhat like me >=)


Look at my right hand, i can actually see you!!! =)


Its my idea. The most repulsive of all =)
I am digging furiously into my nose, trying to get some dirt.
Jessica on far left has gotten her nose dirt, and is trying to eat it.
Sheryl is playing with her nose dirt, squishing and squashing it.
Elvina is trying to flick her nose dirt on me.
Click picture to get a better look.


Huh?


ZZZ
My whole group
ZZZ


IJC!!!
Lighting isnt good, but this is the best we can manage.
Every other JC or institution or Poly grabbed the better spots with better lighting.
I am the only Chinese guy.


No we aint kids. Another lame idea of mine =)
Janet is one of the most interesting girls i ever met.



The nameless collector of collar pins from NUS high.
IJC collar pin in the picture is mine.
She said its nicest collar pin amongst all.
I cant agree more.
1st place - IJC
2nd place - PJC
3rd place - VJC

The above rankings are my opinions.
And there are some extremely ugly ones.
Will leave it to your discretion to judge which ones are ugly. Hee.



Brian - From JJC.
Interesting Guy, hearing impaired.
My roommate. Thank God he gave me a Christian room mate =)
He was actually trying to fit into Elvina s blazer, which is too small for him.
Dont you think he looks cute?
He look likes he is dancing =)



Thats Elvina with Brian's Blazer, over sized big time.
And Brian an overgrown boy in Elvina's tiny Blazer.



More struggling.
In fact i have to help Brian put on the blazer.



Man that sure is tight.



Hmph!



Lee Qi in Brian's shoes.
There are two Brian's in my group.
Lee Qi from HCI, wearing Brian's blazer, shoes, and tie.


Yes thats why this Brian doesnt have shoes.
And he is actually from RJC, so now he wears HCI blazer and tie walking around blatantly. Loll.



We got bored of changing blazers, so now we moved on to collar pins.
All on one guy. Stanley the man!



To clear the confusion, he is from NYP.
Which i can simply believe he works in a bank.



Me being ultimate gay with my Faci, who by the way has a girlfriend. Loll.



My whole group. SG13! =)



If you click on the photo. Look at Jessica on the far Left. She is actually quite good at taking photos. Paying attention to the details man. And my hair totally ruined this picture. Worse hair day of my life, and i have to take so many pictures.



After blazers, and collar pins, we decided to dump all our ties on one guy in particular.
I cant remember, was it Brian who volunteered, or i arrowed him.

As you can see in Pre U sem, there are 6 ACTIVITES we are always engaged in.
1 - TAKING PHOTOS!
2 - Sleep
3 - Talk
4- Changing blazers/ties/shoes/collar pins
5 - Eat (6 meals a day)
6 - Play cards (Of course i dont take pictures while i am playing)


Joey Lam Zheng Yi!!! Please change your blogskin, thank you!