His dream is to make me smile.

06/11/2006

i think its kinda werid. like i am not really going to touch my txtbks again in my life. as if there is a expiry date to its validity. and i am starting to feel that Os aint actually that much? like not alot to study? dont know lehz. i think i studied until almost know everything. what is left is what i do in the time 'FORCED' into my life to seal my destiny.something which i wish would not occur but still it has to.yahz.
in that short time. you are placed in front of a few scripts of papers, and your destiny is decided hence forth by what you do with this time and the papers given to you. the only difference you can make to your future is your preparation for it. but beyond that nothing can be changed? its all constants and a few variables.

and now think of it this way, you are never gonna meet these scripts again. and you will never touch the books that helped you prepare for these scripts. feels kinda weird, and then like you have a new life ahead, though this life is pre-determined by what you do before you sit for the papers.

and come to think of it.i feel that the tests we take and every SA and CA seems to me now futile and invalid. it has no longer any value? like what counts is your cert? though results show, but now to me the CA ans SAs are just a mere gauge, a system created to inform, test, motivate or dishearten...and then you think on a broader scale, the knowledge i have inquired for the past two years. seem to me now again, so finite and limited? and i stop and wonder, i spend two yrs learning this little? like there is so much more left to understand? and i take two yrs to learn so little?

and take SS for example, which is what i sat for today? i was only tested on one chapter? (merger and separation) which can be taught in like 1 hr? and the skills required can be mastered in a short time? yet i took two yrs to prepare? now isnt that time usuage inefficiency? yahz. and compared to UNI and PRE U. the things we learn now is so little compared to them. yahz. not protionate.

aiyaz. education has so much to give. knowledge has so much to provide, what really matters is what you do with what has been taught, and how you move on in life from each lesson learnt.

Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine