His dream is to make me smile.

08/11/2006

GOD really did many miraculous works in my life lahz. esp during Os.
ok today english paper.
paper 1 was HELL!
ok que was...dreams. i mean compo got other ques lahz. if i write them i would commit suicide as well.
ok 'dreams' it was. and my narrative was total crap. beyond crap. irredeemable crap.
....i always wanted to play paino. ever since i saw abigail sin played the paino in her concert, i aspired to be like her.

ok that was total crap. i write finish para 1 know i would die liaoz. ok that was at 9 in the morning. mind you thuoght paper1 ends at 10. only found out it ends at 9.50. to me 10 mins was enough for a miracle to take place. then section B was pretty crappy as well. yahz. even though write draft, i konw i am not confident of it. and ending was abrupt. so DIE! then only scrapped narrative at 9.30. then like i am left with 20 mins to do one compo! 30 MARKS lehz. hello.

at 9.30 i thuoght DIE DIE. ENGLISH GONNA GET 9. ENGLISH GONNA GET 9. shit..F...
ok didnt pertually said that word. mind thuoght of it. all are sinful lahz. so sometimes this kind of things cant help. when panic invade any word comes to mind.
anyway. i prayed again. GOD you are in control. help me write this. and yupz. SQUEEZED ONE COMPO IN 20 MINS. SIAO lahz. i wrote discussive....to me the word dreams have two definitions, one is .... another one is...

so that was how i begined my compo. and RAH! its the worse english paper 1 ever lahz. how am i going to get A1 or 2 like that? i think really GOD's miracle again. ppl said its over dont think about it...but how not to think about it? as i narrate this post i still feel really petrified over everything lohz? your future lahz? 9.30 then start compo. YOU SIAO AH! 9.50 end leh! ok other time was used for drafting. and for the useless narrative. yahz. i felt like saying ok my future is gone. finished. and thoughts of retaking english broke into my mind lahz. and with this kind of panic, how to write well? come to think of it. my content was pretty crap as well? like its short sweet simple, but nothing that outstands lahz. nothing much.

sighz. its something i wont forget that easily. 20MINS COMPO. first time in my life. some more Olvls.

Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine