29/12/2006
when you harden your hearts, faith cannot enter and reside. but when you loosen your heart faith enters, and mircales happen. miracles are occurances of events that is beyond our comprehension, because science and logic does not allow us to understand. but guess what, GOD created both science and logic so he has the power to change it as and when he wants. he can edit the 'rules' of nature.
people get healed because they believed. what made them believed? pride and arrogance hinders one from trusting a higher power, or authority. that's why GOD hates the prideful and arrogance, but loves the humble and contrite in spirit for they are the ones whom GOD can use for his glory.
GOD is a compasionate GOD.
as long as one believes, people can get healed.
just dont harden your hearts.
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
26/12/2006
jimmy learnt that in every friendship there would definately be flaws, its just whether it is surface. no two person are the same, so there would always be differences. thus, different perceptions and differents ways of doing things would arise.
jimmy thinks friends should always work things out? like friends would face difficulties? but people have to learn how to come to terms? but if both friends choose not to confront these flaws, or problems then the friendship would quaver and most probably eventually cease to exist. yup...
jennifer thinks that the most impt thing in friendship is trust. jimmy thinks likewise too. but he thinks that, friendship requires trust, trust requires the individual to be place in a vulnearble position. and vulnerability causes you to give up a part of yourself...oh fine its alright if you dont get it. jimmy said that he wanted to say something to his best friend, but right now, its really early in the morning like, 4 in the morning, so he kind of losts his thoughts. but if the thoughts managed to find their way back, then he MIGHt post it online...ZZZ
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
23/12/2006
jimmy has some missing words. but still he knows a few things remain the way he has hope for.jennifer would still be a best friend first and foremost. and anything beyond that, both jimmy and jennifer know they are not able to commit now.jimmy hopes that everyone who reads this, does understand, that best friends can be comfortable with each other, and yet does not have to enter into a relationship? jimmy is asuming that both himself and jennifer has feelings for each other, but if that is really the case, jimmy knows that they both would stick to the true love wait covenant. YAY!jimmy has been sailing through life recently after Os. he is just enjoying the breeze that is passing by. he know it would soon be over, but he is enjoying it. to him life rocks now? because he knows he does not have to go back to school on jan 2 or 3? it feels good because he is carefree now? what does he plan to do? hmm. he told me that he would like to write a book or two? he isnt too sure if he can pull it off and make it look nice...but he would try to try. or at least he is trying to try...the titles would be....silent thoughts. (emo story) and feel the distance.(love story)jimmy found out that he is very good at coming up with two or three word phrases...and he thinks its cool...jennifer wait on...time seem long now, but it would pass over really fast when you look back.jimmy has learnt quite a bit from the past few weeks after Os? about friendship...thanks jennifer for being such a bestest best friend! and what we go through i will keep it in my memory and my heart.i'll be your distraction.
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
16/12/2006
this generation, save itits your generation, make it
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
13/12/2006
FOR THOSE WHO ARE SUICIDAL DONT READ THIS!\what has life got to offer? everyone has a different life, everyone has friends, needs acceptance and love. everyone is trying to live life the way they want to. live at the place they want to, eat the things they like, do what they desire...this is constant, and for most of us this is what motivates us to keep pursuing life, live for the moment? so what happens next i ask?my perspective aint that nice, truth is, look at everyone around you, what stays, what remains? i mean you invest your life into something but yet it seems meaningless, it will pass, fade, erode, depreciate, one day...it will all be gone. even memories fade, disminishe one day, memories will lose its place, thats for sure, i am assuming that the dead dont carry memories with them ba...always believed time is the best gift from GOD. without time, no love can be establish. without time, no grace and mercy can be shown, without time, no memories would be formed. see the beauty of it all? without time, no flower blooms, no raindrops fall from the sky, no newborn, no stars, no snowflakes, the leaves cant turn yellow, no nothing? but how do we use this gift? its like we never really treasure this gift do we? but its human nature as well? we wake up indefinitely when we are young? only when we draw nearer to our deadline, our expiry date, the day we cease to exist, do we then really wake up!!! and figure that we dont have alot of time left, like in an arcade, we are almost done using up the tokens we have for playing the games we want to play. so what do we do now?sit down and think...so what have we done with the tokens that are no longer in our hands right now? they are gone, can no longer be retrieve in a sense. and it might have all seemed wasted. but if we somehow made it to the top of the score charts, we might have left our mark there, and someone else would see my name there.they say history offers an immortal life? like ppl die but yet their works somehow have impacted the world? but then again, the world will come to an end in the end? right? i mean, even if you dont believe the second coming of christ, look around you and you should be rather convince that the world is coming to an end soon, if you arent... look further, deeper... the hurts, the pain, the hatred, the misunderstanding, grudges that lead to war. ambitions that ends up in dismay, what has life got to offer? is this a world a nice place to live? the porn, the killings, rapings, theft, the destruction, whats next? we all live on another planet? neh think that wont end up nice as well, what we experience here would be brought down to the next planet, the cycle continues, so what do we think about life now?what have you done with your life? what are you proud of? we all go through education, flowed through the same system...and end up the same way. different lives, paths, and destiny, but in the end the crossroad to the afterlife have only two place to offer right? so what makes you so sure that you will end up in heaven? if you arent sure...pls make sure you are sure. make sure your reasons are valid, solid, and able to convince GOD to allow you into heaven. if not i am sorry, you have not booked a place and well, hope you dont mind the heat, the screaming, worms that eat your flesh that never rots, burns constantly consuming yet cannot be your flesh consumed, fire that never quench, excruiating pain awaits you...hehe.think you are gonna party in hell, here to tell you something, its so pain down there, that you cant even pick up a guitar if you can find one, the guitar would be burning too, its hell mate, nothing is nice...get that into your head, you are either in heaven or hell, of course all wish to go to heaven, but what makes you think you have a place there? hmm...and for all the christians, dont think you are assured a place too. the bible said that many calls me lord lord on the day of judgement, but in the end jesus disown them, why? they never carried their cross. if you hold any grude and unforgiveness as well, then sorry dont think you can go heaven as well...the bible said there was this guy who owed his master tons of money, cant repay, begged for mercy, master forgave, then later on, this guy threaten to kill his servant for owing and not paying up, its just a small sum...so in the end this guy ends up in the threshold...the picture is that this guy didnt forgive those who sin against him. yet he sinned against GOD like TONS TONS TONS, and GOD forgave him, yet he could not even forgive those who sin a little against him. so if you have any grudge against someone, think you better clear it asap...remember the bible said before, many trys to enter heaven, but only a small number did...make sure you are in that small number... CARRY YOUR CROSS!AH GO READ GODS word if you havent today...anyway the above scenaros is something i read from a book, and the testifier paid a visit to hell anyway, so i aint coming up with things.ppl read newspaper, my best friend does. but i dont see the purpose of reading it. ok its purpose is to inform the reader of the current situation, but you have to read it again tmr. so we keep reading something that keeps changing. and issit all really worth reading? out of 10 news how many of them are good ones? like acts of love, kindness, patience hope, faith, selflessness, humility....blah blah. so issit worth reading now? hmm...so its ok if you dont read the news best friend.how are you making your life one that rocks? not for yourself, but really rock in the sense yo ucan die with no regrets?does your life rock?
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
...what do we have to say? maybe there isnt anything to say? no there isnt... to all my aquaitances that never manage to be my friends, and friends that never manage to get to the surface at all...//time does not matter... you may know the person exist but two would never become in the least intimate if there is both parties does not put in effort to make things work out? but again why do we always want to make things work out? figured that some of the best things come by when i dont expect them too? like my best friend? oh well she is a blessing anyway. and those whom i try so hard to make it work, yet failed? hmm...looking out from a window...but never stepping out onto the street to feel how its like being there instead of looking from a distance? see the link between this and the friendships? some friendships...or relationships are just this way? you may bring them down from childhood. but time erodes it away? and now we both change...and time seemed to cause things to seperate? making us distant.blog hopping and trying to figure someone's elses life...find your exit for the door swings both ways.do we prepare ourselves and embrace the moment when all fails? like everyone suddenly disowns you? or the question questions you...if all of your friends falls apart what would you do? who would you not let go? i guess i only have one friend ba...hmm...or i mean besides GOD.the older we grow, the number of friends we have dwindles further. the older we grow the more defensive we get? like past hurts and grudges we hold on to, makes us less friendly? my brother said once to before. the older you grow the less christmas present you have to give, and the less you would receive...dont argue with me...you know what i mean...you may know more ppl, but you the number of friends you trust keeps reducing? this is what i mean...looking out from a window.
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
HEH NATwhat do we have to say to each other?words escaped me...interaction has ceased...and only thoughts of you remained...how are you doing? how has life been to you? simple questions that could hardly be answered? i dont even know what is your favourtie colour? but guess what think that doesnt matter? cause i have no idea what is my best friend's favourite colour?but for 8 yrs...this is where we find ourselves? or maybe time wasnt a factor after all? or maybe it might have been our friend, maybe foe. who knows? half our lives...thats how long...where did it all started i asked myself? i only remembered the first interaction we ever really had...that managed to be kept in my memories was the day we played badminton...and you played like a tennis woman...from that day on...things just flowed on...flowed to where? i would like to know the answer too.so what has robbed your time? time sails past us...like an impending tide that crashes down...did we hold on? did we break apart? have promises grow void? time and again, we needed to do this...but now...i question myself again, would it all work? sorry that i doubt you for so many a time...but guess its easier to let go and not hold on? some things would cause more pain if you held on for too long? maybe you changed? maybe you didnt? cause for so long a time we have not even catch up? so in my brain you have not changed? its like growing up together without going through life as friends?so are you a close friend? or a far away mate? but thanks for all that you done for me...guess we might just have to continue waiting? but come to think of it. we have one eternity to get to know each other...in heaven...wait on...
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
11/12/2006
SUPER DIRTY LAH...GROSS...yucks!like pollution everywhere...food like super salty...and i dont like it lah....oh its boring as well...cause nothing to do? cant really shop cause...THERE IS NOTHING TO SHOP! only thing to do there is GAMBLE...there are no trees there so like air pollution like gross to the max...ok and their driving siao one lah...happening you know...they dont care if you are on the road they just drive....scary man...and gong bei a part of china which i also went...another happening place...street food confirm dirty..even if its clean...still loes to singapore...think i am spoiled...HEHE...but yucks lah..really lah chinese not civilise one...i saw a man...with his girlfriend...walking down a street...he summons his phlem (think thats how you spell the word) spits it out right in front of me....gross lah...with his girlfriend somemore....try doing that lah...ok but gong bei siao one lah...their shopping like....1800 shops...and thats just the basement...we havent include the ground floor so now you know what i mean by siao....i walk one day havent walk finish lah...ok i bought...one pair of shoetwo pairs of socksone pair of jeans.never buy underwear...two belts for myself...one for issac goh...one piece of shirt...QUIKSILVER! yay, the first thing i bought in macau.decent thing i mean.oh i bought a cup...for myself...donal duck kinda cute...haha..i think thats all...plus alot of small little gifts for other ppl. got one clock for ivy quah, but then so cute...dont feel like giving her le...feel like giving to someone else..get her something else...HAHA...ok...one thing i love....the bed in my first hotel! wah rocks lah...ok we stayed in two hotels...cause my mother suggest that we would get bored of the breakfast....but her idea didnt work out...causeevery hotel's breakfast pretty much the same...sain lah...so cant escape the horrid repetition of the same breakfast for four days? but its better then having lunch or dinner outside...oh my pair of nike shoes cost 12 sing dollars...oh i just remembered that i bought like ear pieces...not exactly i bought...father did...but i sorta of have one as well...you should check it out man...oh janel forget about what i said that i didnt buy you anything think you might like this...oh well...it cost 7 bucks and its real good for a ear piece that is 7 bucks...ok thats all for macau...i know i just made them lost a bunch of tourist money...but really lah...no point going there...yucks!
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
03/12/2006
only those who are close to GOD would then they know his secrets. GOD sometimes ask us to give up what we thought he gave us, reason is simple. he wants to test us.GOD reasoned, " to see if you were serving me or the dream. "
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
01/12/2006
everything was so AWESOME! i love mi grp! so proud of you all guys! i really thank GOD for blessing me this chance to spend time with such an awesome bunch of young ppl. right from the first hour we started bonding le...we drew our nehemiah prohet during castle defence. COOL LAH! best creativity goes to us! YAY! then my domain really rocks? like though we dont know alot of ppl in our own domains, but yet being in the same domain like made communication so fluent? i think quite alot of my good friends in me domain.so we had a great time of fellowship? and pastor chris long was such an awesome speaker! like really felt the entire megalife spiritual atmosphere really went up by a few levels? we really rebuilt our walls. i believe with all my heart, that 90% of us have walked out of camp with a new spiritual position, almost all received a breakthrough. i think i really love mi best friend.haha. ok know friend would be reading this, but point is. best friend not for the sake of having one, or needing one, but instead i just want to bless my best friend's life in anyway i can? yah.k, sermons and games were all super cool, but the lesson that GOD really impacted and drilled it into my head was the train experience? like...alot of time we turn back when we face our circumstances? we turn back because we find comfort in our comfort zone? we turn back and turn down our destiny in GOD?....this aint the life we gonna lead. we would face circumstances inevitably... but point is, GOD will give us strength and grace to walk through dry times, walk through trials. yah. so come on guys! lets all remeber dont turn back, for your destiny in GOD might just be down the road!
Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine
