His dream is to make me smile.

02/01/2007

who is staying?
who is going?
who remembers me?

whenever such questions bombards me. i usually only have one answer.

you know its you.

i think i allowed my emotions to run a little too free, but guess i dont want it to go on this way? dont want to hurt you. i think i more or less figured out what i want?
i want a person to walk with me through this yr and maybe the next few yrs. i want to talk to someone and have an intimate friendship...one that i can tell my other friends that this is my best friend.
someone i treasure.
someone close enough to hear my crys, my lameness and gayness.
someone who can appreciate almost everything about me. you might not fully understand me every single time. but guess its alright? cause my expectations of you might have been a bit too high.
a friend to confess your love to.
a hand to keep me warm.
an embrace to remind me i am accepted.
of course i am sharing my love with you?
and yes the intimacy we shared have led to certain 'strange feelings' (as how gerry kong states it) being birthed forth.
but i think this strange feelings might have gotten in the way? i dont know about you? but i felt we somehow lost that casual intimacy, or maybe we exchanged it with these strange feelings? but pls i like it the way it was before. where little expectations was required. where commitments was not needed. where we were carefree...
i dont want to lose it, and i dont want to lose you.
i still believe transparency was what brought us to such an intmiate level.
heh. dont lose it. dont lose me. cause i dont want to lose you.
i dont want to lose you. hear me? i dont want to lose you.
if i have to tell the whole world i would.

I DONT WANT TO LOSE YOU!

i want things to end in a beautiful way? if we ever part? i dont want our feelings to get entangled and things getting messy?
if i ever have to lose all my friends. you did be the last i would let go of.
cause i dont want to lose you.

Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine