God i know now the extent of giving so much of yourself, and yet all you receive is spits, punches, nails, blood from your head and body, 39 lashes with sharp edges, and having to carry your cross.
Your cross is your pain, bear that pain.
Your cross is your testimony to the world, out of all this pain that i am bearing, i can smile, because i have a cross while others don't, i have salvation while they don't.
God, i don't know to what extent was your pain, but i got a better understanding of it now. Having the whole world to reject you, yet dying for them and their sins, God i understand a little better now, how it felt when Peter betrayed you thrice, its okay God, your pain was still a lot more worse than mine. But God i don''t mind eating the pain, i asked for it, i asked you to give it to me anyway. I know what i meant when i said, God teach me.
God i will fight and push, even in the painest of moments, even if i am forgotten, i know you have not forgotten me. And i know so many times i have forgotten you, and yet you remained faithful.
Thank you for loving me.

I can take this, the more pain, the stronger i am at this. At all this pain.