I am a silent person. I treasure silence i guess, i never really fancy over ring tones.
I found out that i am running along life with not much of a dream.

God is calling me to be a missionary doctor, but honestly don't really feel like being one. So when you don't feel like doing something, usually it means God s calling, or you are going through hallucination, which i hope i am not.

I asked myself, so what dreams do you want to have? My first answer, sub-consciously, is to help others achieve their dreams.
Thought that was stupid, because how do you help others achieve their dreams, when you never even achieve one?

I am a person who loves changes, challenge, and variety. Change = i will never stick to something for long enough, i will constantly move on to something else. However, over the years I've learnt to value consistency in certain areas of my life. This applies to home, love and friends.
So today, i wonder what do i like to do, my answer = I don't know. Conclusion = I wonder.


Challenge = i might keep comparing with those better than me, leading to jealousy, which is unhealthy. Then this is the interesting bit too, because when i like challenge, i keep doing new things, but if i do it with the wrong attitude then GG.

Applying both change and challenge, it means i never stick to a challenge long enough to bring it to closure, which is more or less true, i keep opening new challenges. But it does not apply to all situations.
The situations that are applied, reading up certain information over the web, playing computer games. Like where you save a game, then next time you play again, you start a new game. SO i have tons of saved games, few completed.
Variety = the interesting bit of me, i keep having random ideas, i got a feeling i think a lot more than the average human being. Give you an example. If you listen to music, and you listen to their lyrics, and seldom think, then i have trump you, because every time it is music in my ears, i cant pay attention to the lyrics for more than one minute, i will launch into my own thoughts and my own world, and its been this way for 17 years. So who thinks more?
But does it matter who wins who. Thing is, its just me.