I am tired, still pushing on. Really am tired. I am not going to ask God for a break, cause i will find the strength to push on, somehow, someway, because God s grace is sufficient.
I am uncertain of many things, and my questions clouds my perceptions, but i am choosing to let God take control.

Imagine you are driving a car, and God sits beside you. And a sudden fog occurs, causing poor vision, you got so fed up, you slam the steering wheel, and said, "God i have enough, you drive!" Maybe God has been sitting beside us in the passenger seat and have all along been waiting for the moment you slam the steering wheel. God replies, "My pleasure." A smile.

I guess we can hide from our tiredness, bury ourselves in work or something, but we will have to face it eventually, might as well just place it before God and talk to him about it. Remember, God usually do the tests with us, at least in my case, he is always waiting for me to ask him how to do it.

Best friend, please don't lose your warmth, i am trying my best to keep up mine, there are many things in me that has been lost or froze, malfunction, whatever, but please don't lose yourself because of me.

God, i am facing this with you. I really am trying to do this with you, there are tons of inner battles i have to face, and i guess i will have to keep facing it till i face it with you. God, i am tired, i am not going to ask for a break, cause your strength for me is definitely sufficient. Ironically, i might just be tired because i have not been relying on your strength, God i don't know.
You are the one who knows best, so why not you tell me.
God would i keep facing the same battles? I know there are new ones, but there are old ones too. I see familiar battles scenes, maybe i just fled the other time. I don't know.
I am slamming the steering wheel!