Alright. Tired. But thanks to Alexi and jonathan Oh...Especially alexi. Came in at the right time! Saved my day. Was actually very tired of cell any everything. And Alexi was there to listen. Jonathan to. So yup thanks guys! I wonder if they read my blog though. Lol. But its kinda scary to find out who reads my blog. People i dont expect.

Alright, i think all readers alike. Would be and are very interested to know the relationship between me and my brother. So this is one of the really rare posts you guys get a visit in my brain on the aspect of family. I guess i am lucky after all. I am starting to love my family more. But i find things so hard man. I wonder if my brother will read this. I wonder if any readers out there are going to let him in on this. But yeah kenneth i kinda gave some thought to what you said to me. And chats with Evelyn was super interesting. I think tk girls really have cheryl tan language. Where things are just arbitrary, and terms like he, she, you know, it, are used. So other people would have no idea what was discussed. Okay thats not relevant.

Oh, kenneth never thank you did i? Got to know you alot more better over lunch. Like alot. Yupz. But yeah thanks for hot milo plus spending time with me over lunch. I know how it feels leading a cell like ours. Not implying anything, but i kinda understand how you feel, so yeah sometimes i come to cell because of that reason. Kinda wrong, but yeah, sometimes its really tiring to make sure everything is right isnt it? I guess the right thing to do at all times is to listen to God. My brother yeah...

Alright, first we talk in Chinese. Stunned? I dont know you, but yeah, its been like that since young, so say hello to Chinese families. Common questions between us, what time are you sleeping? Mum and dad fetching, how? Do you want to use the computer? What time are you waking up? All done in chinese. Alright, thats more or less what i can muster. And he is kinda standing behind me now. Loll.

I guess my brother loves me. No he does. Pretty sure of it. But i wonder if he know how to really love me the way i wish he could. And he is killing a croakcroach now. A small one. He buys stuff for me, clothes. Erm for your info, the Nike brown shirt is from him. The Uber huge white pants is from him too. With quiksilver printed acorss my butt. He bought other shirts for me too, but sorry, not really in the body shape to wear them. Loll. He bought me slippers too. He just picked up the guitar!

But i wish we could just talk. How awkward loh, like i struggle to find what to talk to him about? Oh, we can sit on the train for an hour and exchange less than two lines? Like first line...from me, are you tireD? Yeah. When we are about to alight...one of us will gesture to the other to get off the train. Alright. We listen to Ipod, and not each other. But my brother do give me some pretty good advice here and there. He told our family once. What his lecturer told him. Close friends should know this.

Everyone has their mountain to climb, like corporate ladders, but make sure you dont climb to the top of the mountain, and realise that YOU CLIMBED THE WRONG MOUNTAIN! I thought that was a very thought provoking illustration.

Here are other stuff about him...he used to be a cross country runner...his best timing, 17mins for 5 km. Any girl out there chasing him. Yeah you know, you gotta run faster than him.
I wanted to say something embarrassing about him, but nope, this is my brother. Heh! =)
Oh yes, just like you, i wonder who he likes, why doesnt he have a girlfriend now, guess its ministry, plus other personal stuff. And yes i would very much like to know who would be my sister in law. Lol.
Oh his english name is Jenson.

So far i am feeling quite spas from all the info i am telling you.

I remember shu yin told me, that it was very cute, when my brother decided to pray for me in outer limits camp. And yes its one of the few times i cried. I hope i can cry in front of him again. I dont mind. Its been really long since i cried. I wonder if thats the last time i cried when someone prayed for me. I think last year when Pastor Joyce prayed for me, fortified, first night, and my right side of my upper neck is like palpiutating, no idea why. Oh i counted the tear. Yes tear, was hoping for more tears though. I guess i am too numbed.

I wish we could talk more. But he is my elder brother. He should take the initiative shouldnt he? Oh, anyone out there thinking its just age gap, i dissent! Like seriously, i dont believe in age gap, like what PJ said...
To me age gap, happens when you think its there. If age gap exist, than how about your love for your grandparents? You call that all fake? All age gap? So yeah, no such thing as age gap. Love exist across all ages and all boundaries. The issue is just where does it grow, and on what grounds, and age, yes do affect.

Alright, my shoutout to him? I love you kor! Thanks for all the treats you gave me last time. I do remember them. Guess i took it for granted then, but i dont now. Yeah.
Oh, do talk to me more.

And i am feeling super weird. Like the whole world knows my inside life with my brother now. All megalifers with sibilings in megalife too, do post something? Join me in sibiling appreciation movement! =)
We are one big family!!! So yeah. Okay no logic and link.


Oh, and i found a composition of chemical matters super beautiful today! Like extremely! Beyond the moon and stars, and trumping all the monkeys and pigs, obviously. And i cant take my eyes off it. Yup =)