His dream is to make me smile.

13/11/2007

God i wonder, why does care collides, and turn into pain?

God i thought...pain, hurts, situations are not that scary, the change that happens after that is.

God i am finding this hard, but since i see those around me not giving up, i cant as well. Hold out.
God they are right, skip church once, and you most probably will never come back.

God why does so many of us hurt in camp comm? Yes finally i mentioned the piece that hurt so much. Camp comm. Why does of us hurt there? * To readers* Do pray for spiritual protection.

God i wonder about highlife watch night, i skipped two meetings, because i can barely bring myself to church.
God why is it so tempting to just pull the plug?
God i want to thank you for the love you shown, yes i guess i finally felt your love for me. after so many years. God if you didnt see, i know you did, but if you didnt, i teared when i shared what you did for me.

God, i forgot what is significance.
God thanks for reminding me that instead of running away from the pain, run towards my dream.
God thanks for helping me remember what Nat said, about the courage i had. And i want to have back.
God help me keep my smile!
God thank you that the only hurting piece is you, plus church, ministry, and relations. Thank you that there i am doing fine at home. At least bearable.
God i pray that you will grant strength to see things your way.
God i pray you will remove my stubbornness, but the sad thing is, i am too stubborn to let you remove it.
God i pray that you help me out with all the .... words.
God i pray that you will heal all the hurts, but i wonder will they ever really get healed? Doubting myself i guess.
God i only remembered genuine care from last week. And i thank you for that, because last week was one of the most painful weeks in my life. And i want to thank the person who showed it to me. It meant a lot to me.
God i am sorry for making you miss me, sorry for not reading your word for nearing two weeks, sorry for so many other things.
God i really wish next year i can smile with ease, to the extent, smiling has turned into my forte. God i wish i am able to snip off the emotional ties, but i got a feeling i cant. I got a feeling you want to snip it of me, but...i am wondering how.
Missing words.

God if you havent realised, i know you did, but if you havent, this post is dedicated to you. Love you God.

Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine