His dream is to make me smile.

26/11/2007

I might change church. Not so soon i believe, not too many transactions at one go like the beginning of this year.
Ronald lets hope what you told me about your sis works out for me as well.
I havent been growing, like seriously in megalife at all. I dont feel growth. Neither have i been growing in highlife.
I like the idea of not having to keep going down all the way for church, pushed over the limits, and ideas toyed seemed attractive.
God didnt object me from changing church, so i am still thinking over stuff.
But i know i will be missing a lot of people, friends, and cells. Even though i never really felt like i fit in, but i know its my teen years that i will be leaving behind. I mean i dont have a lot of secondary school friends, about a little more than half a dozen i still keep in contact?
I hope when i change, my cell members will still do fine.
But as i change, i am quite determine to come back, when i am ready. And i do imagine how it will be like when i come back like say after 2 years? I see all my young ones grow to sec4s. And everyone would have changed so much. And change is something scary, it can either erode friendships or it can make it stronger. Usually erode.
But leaving isnt too hard as well, its seriously a struggle with God here. Its been seriously beyond me. The only reason how i manage to make it through so far, its because i have a stubborn God who happens to always come up with something better to convict me to push on.

Be strong. Be courageous. Be brave. I have not given you a spiriti of timidity...ALRIGHT shut up, i get your point...but i still find it hard. Come on face it like a man. Eat the pain.

Minstry should never be at the expanse of your walk with God, and it has been an expanse to me for the past few months. And been in the wilderness for a few years. Thank God the wilderness have springs to refresh my weary body.

But i am still toying with the idea. Change church.

Scintillate, Sparkle, Shine