I shall just go traveling when i grow up.
For those who dont know. I like to visit hotels. Not the rooms, but the lobby and the whole architect.
So much for a brother who doesnt want to move house. And a father who doesnt like to spend money. Forget about snow for now. Forget about moving house. I am moving somewhere else then.

I wish i was able to move beyond Asia, and Australia, i know there are people who never get to take a plane in their whole life, but yes i wish for more. Its the constant disatisfaction in human beings that formed technology, dont you think so? Yes, curiousity as well.


Avoid all emotions.

I am confused with myself, but the truth is, i dont care.
Zero expectations.
Its okay if no one cares about me, because i dont even care about myself.

For those who want to care, be prepared to get hurt. So my best advice is dont care about me. Second best advice, if you are going to care, you have a few things to achieve, break into my brain, get me to be authentic, speak to me on something i never heard before, provide another perspective, and most importantly, convict me. I guess trying to convict me is almost impossible, because if its going to be me convicting myself, i most probably refuse to do so.

To all who care, i am sorry to say this, its not your fault, i know where you are coming from, but can you all stop asking me if i am better, because every time you ask me, i feel worse, because, i am not feeling better. I am not blaming anyone, really, just try something different. Please dont feel blamed. No point, because i am not blaming.

Randolf told me two things...I knew the first, second was new. I am hardly convinced, but the second point, yes i am a bit i guess. Convince = i agree, and i will try to change my thinking. For all who doesnt understand what i just wrote, dont bother. For those who want to think more, and misinterpret, i have nothing to say. Because most of your have no idea what i am thinking, so please, i implore you, dont bother. Ah never mind.

1. Titles does not matter, what matters is how God see you. A delay is never a denial.
2. Never share your emotional problems with the girl you like, you only make things worse, and her purity is at jeopardy. Even when you miss her, or am tempted to say i love you, you should not at all. Self control. Every phone call is a spiritual burden to her. Of course for all girls who read this, it applies to guys as well i guess. Another thing, you should not plan about marriage or whatsoever, because you are speeding things up, God has a plan for the both of your, so why plan?

I am saying this because, firstly i am too lazy to switch accuonts. Secondly, i think its something new, and you all should know this, it is difficult, but its better. *To those who it may apply. I am saying this more for everyone than for myself.


I guess i am remaining silent, even here. At least i wont talk here.

Its not that you dont know me. Its just that you never seen this part of me. To no particular person. Like seriously.

Silence is my friend =)