I wrote 303 posts this year alone, mostly in the august and September month...
This year been a hard one, the most painful year in my whole life.
The images remain so vivid, and the feelings, not anywhere near distant, everything that i just reflected seems just like yesterday.

January to April was more of a floating season, trying to find direction.
May was school, and it was boring and dead.
June was a horrible season, like seriously, 3 days of straight complain about school, the period where i wanted to quit poly, which i did.
July was a series of mistakes, and downfalls all stringed together, guess God was in the middle of it all still.
August was breaking out of Poly, but entered into a season of lonely self study, so far watched about 1000 videos on stumbleupon.
Then November and early December was camp comm...sweet at the end, besides that bitter and traumatic, still suffering under the effects of PTSD. Mean it.
Now the end of year, everything seem just like yesterday.

For all the posts i read and will be reading i will honour this post...think its a post where i fought really hard within...

- Dont give up in your fight, dear boy.
God taught you to stay on, wait for the later part of the show, cause you never know if you would be in for a surprise.
You are an overcomer, so keep fighting, remember you told yongzilla, stop focusing on your problem, instead your solution, keep your eyes on God.
Remember your confidence is not in men, but in God. You may lose yourself in the world, but know who stands beside you, who is the one who holds you together.
Remember, the joy of the Lord is my strength, strive to put the smile on God's face. When you do so, your pain seems to fizzle away.
Son, remember Jesus went through times whole lot more tougher than you, he pulled through, by perseverance, acquire that spirit.
Remember, stick with your changes and learn from your mistakes, step by step, follow God s plan. Perfect plan. Your life would be nicer that way.
God teach me to do so, to die to my carnal desires and follow your way, to stop fitting you into my life, but instead lay it all down, so you can fit me into your plan.
God, i am an overcomer! Teach me to live like one.

God i am bringing you into next year...

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