This year hasn't been easy. In fact extremely difficult, tough, and painful, and obviously not smooth at all. I still feel really confused, and mistreated, accused, and misunderstood in some way.
I pray next year will be a smoother year.
I wonder about my ministry, my education, my calling, my life, my God.
I am starting to really see them grow, and wala...its a new year approaching, means refresh, remake, and a new game plan. Kind of starting to hate that. I seriously wonder which cell i am at now. My assimilation was never smooth either. God...i dont like this...in fact hate it...but i shall still praise your name. I trust you God.

Dom...i do wonder about your question too, and my answer is the same as yours...if your current answer now is still die, then i charge you responsible, to rise up and make the cell a strong one, a loving one, a united one, an inclusive one, an on fire one, a passionate one, and most importantly God fearing one.
Hope i made a difference in all of them, guess i did.

God though my work is short, i am still pretty hurt from all this confusing nonsense...but God i pray your favour will still be upon the place i am about to leave...

Amen.