Come to think of it, things are starting to kick in. And crap i lost my mood to mug...
Sigh...i haven done anything yet, but i guess finding the remains from the debris alone is hard enough, let alone pull yourself together. And when you finally push yourself together, you lost a companion you hold really close to...still the journey has to go on.

I yearn for something deeper...and i have been awaiting something superficial like this in my life, but at least its still not as bad as Poly life...


God i pray the smiles i see everyday, are genuine.
I pray you help me create smiles on people around me. Smiles that last.
I pray that God you plant people around me to give me smiles that i can remember.
Help me focus on the smiles, instead of the frowns.
I pray God you help me see and find something to smile about everyday.
And finally let me be reminded, you are the reason i smile...
=)

Road Run. Rasalas House Won. My house =) 345 points a far cry from the second and third runner up with 271 points. I contributed to the 345 points. My legs hurt from shin splint, brain lacked oxygen, received stitches on both sides at different times, and didnt even feel like running that day.

I wonder...do the electrons always want to get ionised? Do they have a choice? Do they have feelings and thoughts just like us? Are they able to object to the fact that they must be ionised just to achieve a stable complete octet? Are their existence simply just to create complete octets and move around?
Chem + Lit = Twerp mind like mine.

The problem of pain...

I tricked Dory with Cheryl, into believing i have a dog, it rescued Cheryl from being knock down by a car, in east cost park, and it died. Held a funeral yesterday. Dory believed =) she asked for the Dog's name: cookie, and wanted to commemorate it, blogged halfway then we told her she's been tricked =)
Seriously SUPER FUNNY!

EXTRACTS FROM CONVO


ngjhc_93@hotmail.com says:
i went to it's funeral today
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
reallyyyyy
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
omggggg
ngjhc_93@hotmail.com says:
ya. did you know it died trying to save me
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
OMG
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
SERIOUS

juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
omggg cheryl!! luckily you're alive!!!
ngjhc_93@hotmail.com says:
but the poor dog!
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
oMGOMGOMGOGMG
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
you better look b4 you cross the road k!

Then we told her...
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
HUH REALLYYY
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
WALAOOOOOOO
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
seriousssss
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
im damn sad bcos of the dog leh
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
im blogging abt it to commemorate it leh!!
juicy_fullstops@hotmail.com says:
wa laooooo
OHMY GOD THIS IS THE ULTIMATE

Extracts from my convo with Dory:
dory says (9:36 PM):
ehhh you okay not
Called to Freedom says (9:36 PM):
=(
dory says (9:39 PM):
maybe it went to heaven..and it was a hero
Called to Freedom says (9:39 PM):
ya...
sigh...
it was so brave
you should seen how it rescued cheryl..
dory says (9:40 PM):
huhh..
i ddint know dogs were so..
good
Called to Freedom says (9:41 PM):
Ya...what it did was really brave..
dory says (9:41 PM):
yep feel proud
wads your dog's name?
i shall commemorate it
Called to Freedom says (9:41 PM):
Cookie...
Sigh..
actually come to think of it...
Called to Freedom says (9:42 PM):
its a bit funny..
LIke its called Cookie, and then...it got killed =( on the road..
So its flatten cookie...
Sigh...

When i told her...
Called to Freedom says (9:46 PM):
Eh did Cheryl tell you?
dory says (9:46 PM):
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yesssssss
wa laoooo
i'm like mourning for your dog..
ahaha
tskkk

dory says (9:47 PM):
WA PIANGGGGGGG
Called to Freedom says (9:47 PM):
LLOOLLLLLLLLL
dory says (9:47 PM):
make me so sad!!!


Hee was totally hilarious. I hope no one adds them on MSN on purpose to harass them, please dont...i am too lazy to change their Emails...no idea why issit that way too.

I got the idea from reading Carissa's subnick =)

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Read on poverty...Extracts from what i read.
million people still suffer from chronic malnutrition

resorting to foreign food aid and scavenging amongst rotting trash or stealing to cope with hunger and malnutrition.

An unbelieveable 30 million people a year die of hunger.

North Korea and the former Soviet Union have all wielded food as a political weapon to humble and starve people into submission to their rule.

Ethiopia was suffering from famine and the world was horror struck by the images of starving children on television, the country was exporting green beans to Europe.

The reason why people continue to go hungry have to do with government corruption, misdistribution of food supplies and unfair international trade policies which raise the cost of framing. These reasons have more impact when accompanied by the usual developing country ills of violence, drought and disease. Distribution or misdistribution of food is one of the primary reasons why people starve

Storing, processing and moving food is a surprisingly complicated process and this creates many opportunities for corruption to happen.
As can be seen, addressing world hunger problems is not just about increasing food production. Instead, there is a need to look at the systemic root causes of hunger that call for robust political action. Inequalities in the world food system need to be addressed. Helping poor and hungry countries increase their food security and in turn decrease their dependency on food aid is the key to breaking the cycle of hunger.

I wonder...
Jesus didnt demand for money when he fed the 5000.

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This is rather absurd....


Thanks for reading =)
BACK TO MUGGing Gosh...

Join the Tough Club - Today's sermon =)
No it wasnt about how fat we were.

3-Points...
Prevent Defeat - Lukewarmness, Anxiety
Expect War
Fight together with the right people.

Prevent Defeat
Lukewarmness - We are the generation, that is plagued with this problem, go read revelations 3.14. We are that church =( People, don't be satisfied with how much you know God.
Go Back to the source to prevent Lukewarmness.
Anxiety - I always admired people who can keep it calm and cool (Usually they are spiritual giants) especially Jesus, who slept in the storm. He knew God was in control, he had faith, and he trusted God to see them through that storm.

Expect war - Its no surprise when people hate us for standing up for Christ. This is the world, so just accept it.

Fight together with the right people - People be mindful of where you get advice and from whom. Get it from God first, from older Christians and people who has experienced what you are experiencing. Christian books are a great alternative, they shortcut your pain. Because these people experienced what you are experiencing, they guide you along.

Today's worship, and most probably every week's, made the floor shook. Well almost everyone jumped, besides me who felt the floor shaking. I remember days back then, jumping was the norm. No comparison...just that...let your actions speak your love. I didnt really jump due to shin splint.
And i am starting to fall in love with Worship again =)

11th April - Planetshakers Conference. I have free tickets, let me know if you want to come.
12 - 13th April - Pre U sem Boot camp.
13th April - Vocal Ensemble concert...Let me know if you want to come too. please do =(

There was a job interview. Many people turned up for it, they filled up the job application form, and waited to be summoned. A young man stood up after a while, and walked into the room. He emerged from the room, shook hands with the manager, "Welcome aboard, you got the job." =) The other applicants were furious, how did he get the job while we waited here for so long?
This young man, observed, and saw that the receptionist was using morse code to communicate to all of them, "You may now go into the room for the interview." Only this young man noticed.
Moral of the story - Pay attention to your surroundings, God may likewise be speaking to you!

Discern my thoughts.
I am going to change the blogskin soon. Maybe June? Okay that aint that soon.
Now I hate the skin too. But i still like Kingdom hearts, to a small extent.

A tsunami swept me away
In my hands, an important letter
I took an hour to complete it
God i pray the recipient would receive it


Had phonetics =) Real fun.

Back to PI. Sigh...


Ronald once told me...if its 99.9 % fat free...then it isnt fat free anymore is it?

I finished school at 7PM today =)
And i got locked up by that time.
Thank God, cause IJ has nightlife, there were still people around to get us out.
Yeah we had 2 chem tests, i am satisfied with what i produced on the test papers =)

Concert...
PI first draft done.
Civics are going to turn into PW tutorials as well...
Oh well.
Must get A!

Think about...in terms of human relations (No intention of implications required)

Who loves you the most?
Who hates you the most?

Its extremely peculiar when both answers happen to be the same.

Just random...
And i think the ans is interesting.

I've been listening and watching to this video all day.
Done with this first draft PI, rather satisfied.

Pack Table. Talk to God. Embrace the second wave of impact.

A thousand sorries just wont wash away the pain.
The thin thread of memory just cant be broken.

My thoughts suffocate me. But i am still smiling =)

I guess i am really getting back my gift of encouragement! =) I realised i blessed a lot of people today with words of love and praise =)

For the first time in my life, i thought that church has turned into a market place, selling products that benefits the morality of mankind. No idea why am i thinking this way, and its kind of intimidating to me.

I had fun greeting and catching up with people. But i feel torn between two churches...i wonder does anyone really know why i changed..? Not pinpointing, but just random curiosity. I am still going to grow in COS. I stopped growing in Megalife. But the old relations back there is...its just weird how i visit my past, yet i am in my present, but the i find more comfort in a way in my past in my old church in the church i grew up in, yet found so many pains there too.
I might go back during Army.

I totally love my LOVEWOOD nursery shirt! =)

And yes i am so much more smilier nowadays. And i am going to die from workload!!! No i will survive. Somehow, someway =) I will learn Abel's slacking method =) Muhahaha.

Anyone who just read this...please let me know...if you want to come for my concert...it would most probably be the last time i would sing with my choir, first and last as alumni choir. For girls who are interested in cute guys, this is the concert to go. Okay...sorry, that sounds so cheap. But do come. I guess we should have some nice voices, at least i think my alumni piece sounds decent.
Its on my birthday!!! So must come!!! Muhahaha....I am so high.
April 13th.
Sunday.
2-4. 4-6.
12 bucks.
YMS = this place.
I just sneezed.
I'll just pass your the tickets on the day itself la...will make reservations =)

He never found the courage to face the silent lines after his greeting.
Even though he rehearsed the scenario a million times in his head. He never got pass the "Hi"...
His following thought was the awkwardness he would face afterwards, and he is still thinking.

Silence is speech...In an incohesive fashion.

We all grow.
We all change.
And as we grow, we find ourselves with more and more questions left unanswered.
What s important is...
Not what you dont know, and whatever answers you try to find.
But instead, what you know, and where your conviction lies.
Dont ever let age steal away your conviction and morals.

If Jesus is your friend and Saviour today, let him also be likewise in the following days of your life.



A JOKE in the middle of chem lecture



My school's TV. Was just bored, sadly no one really looks at it.



I found SpongeBob in Choir. =)



Believe me, i am not so tall...
And that white piece of paper there, looks so wrong...



A girl i caught with hair long enough to...
oh i dont know what can you do with such long hair....



Hao sheng playing xylophone, in alumni choir practice.
Naughty boy!



Nat adoring her dinner =) Totally rocks!!



My Succulent, juicy, sensational, heaven-like, salmon rice...Yum
=)))



Nat's Disgusting...Kidding, actually her food is nicer than mine =(
The yellow stuff you see is actually little bits and pieces of egg, no idea how they do it, but it tastes fantabulous.



Mervin's gorgeously gay looking wallet on my file, in burger king, but i like the band strap, its cool, and it has little black holes all around the wallet to ventilate those with sweaty palms =)
In fact i have no idea what are the functions...



The day that the traffic lights really went out, outside my school, didnt get a good shot, cause i was crossing a road with no traffic lights on, dont want to get knock down you know what i mean?
The woo on the sign= woodlands st 22



Our first birthday cake in class =)
This cake represents 5 individual's birthday.
In the month of Jan and Feb.



My PW handbook, wonder if other schools have it...
I think they dont, at least AJ dont...We in INNOVA are well spoon fed =)
See IJ s nice =)



Some more lame jokes from chem lecturers, bunch of jokers. Mind you, different chem lecturer, and they always show videos, in the middle of lectures, nothing to do with chem, just to destress us for a while, love them =) and usually i remember the videos so much better than what they teach.
Oh they even award certs to those who scored full marks for their test.



Chem lecturer trying to burn the...the...yeah you know that thing...
Or maybe just trying to start a fire, so he can go home and rest, and still get paid.
=)
Arent they thoughtful?




Jill's spongebob slippers!!!
Okay it looks disgusting on me, i admit...
But...its spongebob!!! =)



Jill's messy room!
Actually it isnt messy la, compared to mine. Hee.
I am in the photo if you can see...
And i like the INNOVA touch rugby paper =)




Jill's adorable looking pooh bear!!! Its seriously huge!
=)




Dim sum dollies! Totally awesome!



Now you know what i mean by huge!!
And no i am not strangling pooh bear, its still alive, i mean in one piece.

TOODLES, gotta prepare for cell gathering at my place...which is a little bit fast...

Come on jiayou! Joey Lam Zheng Yi you can do it for the mole! Yeah The sexy cute looking mole of your beloved chemistry. No i am starting to hate it, cause i am feeling discouraged about it, but its okay, i will do well on that chapter when As draw nearer.
Took chem to get A, nothing less.

Monday would most prob end at 7pm. Stiochometry retest, Atomic test.
April 1 is maths test, another time bomb.
Tmr is insane, at 230 - 330, i have house meeting and Pre U seminar Interview. I wonder again.
120 ppl fighting for 25 slots, i still think i stand a small chance, poly did help me on this, great deal actually =) But then again...Confidence is starting to leave me. But i know where it lies =)

Monotony is starting to set into my life.
Yeah Gerry...Good luck to PW.
Its amazing how many memories i have on last year, is in fact unpleasant.


I was wondering...Would God ever be smaller than us?
In size...


Alright off to write a few letters to some beloved ppl in my life =)


Today i called the police. The traffic lights malfunctioned outside my school.
It s the first time i really called the police. Hope no one got their cars crashed before the traffic police reached there.

I am feeling weird about studies.
And i am thinking way too much.

You rock!

A sting of sarcasm bit my skin
As the words spit out from her mouth


I thought to myself last night, it sucks being a guy, because half the time we are getting rejected. When attraction hits our hormones, we stand a chance of getting rejected, fair enough, because guys are suppose to be the ones asking the girls anyway. In a relationship, we constantly get rejected?
"Would you want me to carry your bag?"..."Do you want to drink water?"..."Let me pay for..."
"Do you want to sit beside me?"..."Do you want this, or that..."
Girls, for your information, due to social rituals, and unwritten etiquettes, guys sometimes propose a suggestion not only because for your welfare, but for theirs too? Please do spare a thought what the guy's wants or needs.
Offers, at times hold more weight than it sounds.
Rejection can simply just slap away the guys efforts, invalidating them, totally hurts.
Never knew, better change?

Totally sucks...I retire my life as a proposer of this sort, i guess i would just do gentleman things without even offering anymore, that way girls who just reject me are so blatant in their actions.
But i haven't been doing much anyway...or maybe its already part of me to do it.
Initiation is never found in a guy's dictionary. Initiation occurs when it is sparked off with encouragement, and APPRECIATION!
Which leaves me feeling so disgusted at times when the opposite sex has no form of appreciation how much a guy goes through to...
Fine i am rather bias in this post. And maybe the last few too.


Word was totally awesome! =)
Learnt a lot!
3 points plan of Satan - Deceit, Dominate, Destroy
*Ignorance is a mighty weapon the devil use against us.
*God has everything to back what he says, if he says he will, he will.
Unless we choose to depart the land of captivity, we will never reach the promised land.
We become contented with purely surviving, we must overcome! ( I am guilty of this )

***
Trials come from God, while Burdens come from the devil. Please discern carefully.
Trials have the sufficient grace and strength to sustain you through it all.
Burdens are just out to kill, steal and destroy you!

Illustration**
Trial - Going through a surgery in the best hospital
Burden - A mugger stabbing you in a dark alley
Similarities - Foreign object cuts your flesh, infection might occur
Differences - The intention behind it is different! The surgeon is out to heal you. The mugger wants your money! And to kill you!

When we pray for healing, God dont always heal...then what for do we pray?
A Pastor asked, "God why are only some healed?"
God replied, "It's none of your business, your business is to pray!"
God has the final say, and will decide what happens to your prayer! So keep praying!

Dont come up with some lame excuse when Your prayers seem left unanswered, God hears, God acts, you just do your part by praying!

Pray on!

Thanks childhood friend for the night spent in esplanade enjoying the melodies from sara wee especially. Mosaic music festival was interesting.

Thank you God for blessing this one whole year.
Its the 3rd month, and its still blissful, even though i flunked my mole =(

I used to ask God why do i have so little friends?
Now i ask God why do i have so many friends? Guess he answered my request.

I hope i didn't disappoint my piano teacher.

Mute math has lyrics that i think all of their songs contain Christian messages =)
A band made of Christians, not selling Christian music, yet having Christian messages in their music. And i have no idea how do they do this LIVE


I found this poem online...

I met a thousand woman,
But only you stood out,
And caught my eye,
I dont think i can ever love another like you.


I came up with a list of oxymoron and contradictions -

Entering Exits
Incomplete Circle
Slipping Grip
Calm Frustration
Realistic Impossibilities
Uncertain Conviction
Filled Vacuum
Gentle Stare
Stale Vibrancy
Blunt Sharpener
Intelligent Idiot

Less work left to do =)
Watched step up 2, a plot so lousy i bet i can come up with something better. The dance moves are impressive, i dislike the script writer.

A good friend's grandma passed away.
A good friend flew off to some other world.
A good friend showed me lots of photos.

Another person on this earth got heartbroken.
Another person on this earth got rejected.
Another person on this earth felt like a failure.

A man stood up for what he believed in.
A girl saved another soul out of compassion.
An old lady prayed a prayer for the poor.

I kinda forgot why did i come online to blog, which is bad, cause i purposely switched it on, at 2 am in the morning.
Glad my parents are back, miss them.

Oh i just remembered, I heart Revolution album is out! Totally cool, cause each song is from a different country, a particular state, so its an all over the world recorded album.

The song Hero/Heroine is residing in my head.

I pray that my new found good or close friends, will remain this way, and things will improve =)
A random chat with an old pal in st gabs brings back certain flavours missing in my life. Mr Chye.

Oh another thing! What I wanted to post about...was a trend ... told me.
Girls from all girl schools, either stick to girls all the way when they enter into mix school, or keep sticking to guys when they entetr into mix school. Not entirely, but mostly. It applies to vice versa, Boys from boys school....Bla bla bla. I agree. That explains why so many of my friends are...
Or at least close friends.
Maybe getting myself into a Boys school, was a wrong idea after all...Nah i dont regret going there. I built up Vocal ensemble, which Mr lee made a bold remark...throw them to any tom dick or harry, they will still sound decent.

I totally know how it feels when you wonder if the other person is thinking about you. Totally sucks!

I think everyone in my blog will remain anonymous, no names will be mentioned, only specific events will highlight the particular individual i want to thank.
Thanks ... for the time spent this afternoon and evening, mugging and just sharing your life with me =)
But dont always make me go down to your place, cause its damn far! Anyway, i wonder if you are reading this.

Sleep!
I love the word totally now, must be...actually i dont know who or where made me like that word.
Totally!

Today my head felt like exploding.
My neck was palpitating by the blood pumping up into my head.
I started seeing blue things across my vision.
Oxygen depleted from my brain causing me to feel slightly nausea.
Its the first time i trained in cold weather for track.
The wet track just made it all the more difficult to run in the beginning.

Her face was blemished by the acid, yet my heart did not deter its course, and kept to its promise.
I find myself proud, that i still find love beyond looks, that love was genuine.
I had a dream.

I thought about how obsessed a guy can get with a girl he likes.
He would treat her like a princess, carrying her stuff, being there when she needs him.
He would say sweet stuff, and would seriously mean it, if he really mean it.
He would keep thinking about her, and look forward to the next time they meet.
He would miss her voice, and yearn to listen to it.
He would think of what does she like, and buy it for her.
He would let his emotions be led astray by the new found addiction.

I'm still thinking.
Maybe that just shows, i still retain cognitive function.

Wa gosh, Mute Math has seriously good stage presence!!

Check this out.
If you dont have the time skip to the back like 6 - 7 mins.

Today had Chem test, totally flunk it, its going to be the last, making sure of that, and yes i am ignorant but i will aim for 'that'.
Had chem tutorial in a lecture theatre, sounds rather ironic, but yeah.
I think My Tutor pushes us really hard, even gave us hints for PW so we would go read up ahead, and we are like made to do a trial draft, its like a draft of a draft. Received some wake up call from Tutor as a class, totally freaking me out now.
I have tons of holiday homework, and the following months in term 2 it will be zslkjhguesnaflio Tons of homework. Survival and avoidance of snowball will be top priority.
I wont sacrifice sleep for tutorials, will just complete them over the weekend, getting stuff into my head from lecture is more important. Advices from Seniors are nice =)
And i heard the Stats in IJ's second batch's performance...seriously embarrassing to me. Its okay, it will just be history, i am not going to let that happen to my batch, at least to myself. Seriously disgusting results.

I am still obsessed with Mute Math, i wonder who is as crazy about them as me, i will go catch their concert if they ever land up here in a few years time to come.
I guess my preferred genre now is indie instead of punk rock.
I like Mute Math, Relient K, Lost prophets, Coldplay, Anberlin, Boys like Girls, maybe switchfoot? Oh Toby Mac too, John Mayer! This is all i can recall off my head for now.

I've got a cool idea =)


One day i should write out 10 ways to propose to your girlfriend, publish a book and earn money =) I already have a few in my head. Heh. No this isnt the cool idea. Its something else.

Alright off to look at Coetzee and his gorgeous looking moustache. I like it white =)

Totally in love with mute math!!! My next obsession!

This song of theirs - Control...Can seriously set me off dancing, jumping, and just shaking my head to the beat =) Euphoric sensation. Splendid endorphins.
This song has now make it to my favourite s charts. It will most probably be remembered throughout my whole life =)


I got to know 3 new people, saw a friend's boyfriend, and made one friend. My social circle has seriously exploded this year, i'm wondering if i can take of all this together. But nevertheless i was complaining about it two years ago, and felt depressed over it.
And i am not going to be affected by how others see me as a flirt, which is like whatever, so not true.

I used to say i want to be a kid again, and i know many people says that too, but i come to realise if you live your life in ways that are just plain fun, innocent in your perspective, i find contentment. And right now i dont feel like i want to be a kid, cause i am having the most fun in my life ever =) Its been a good 2 months odd, and not one day has been upsetting, at most just tormenting to my emotions over pass thoughts.

Camp comm meeting was fun =) Staying over at Ronald's hs was great, and i loved his question.
Will we ever surprise God?
I dont wish to conclude a definite answer, but its thought provoking =)


I've been looking at relations fall apart again, and seriously i think its dumb.
Its just difference in communication.
To the "acceptable breed of both genders", i would now explain the common scenario expected.
The guy totally falls in love with the girl. She has became his new found obessesion, addiction, and his mind is constantly afflicted by euphoric thoughts of her, but he doesnt mind. Around 6 months into the relationship, he suddenly pulls back = stop talking, avoiding, feels that she is super demanding, just plain ignorance towards her. The girl feels damn hurt. What happens here, is that the guy has used up his love tank.
All guys have love tanks, and its the girls duty to keep it filled, of course works vice versa.
The guy when feeling that his love tanks out, will refill it by, having space and time to himself, he needs to love himself, before he can love the girl. When girls get this concept, so much arguing and hurts can be avoided, so girls just let the guys go.
But of course guys, gotta know girls need assurance and security, so dont be so...i dont know? Just suddenly leave the girl aside all together, tell her that you need time and space for yourself, not that the girl has lost her appeal, but he has finished his love tank. Assure her you would come back, you have no idea how long it would take, but you would. And girls, the more you interfere with him being alone to himself, the longer he is going to be done with refilling the love tank.

Which guy would not think about girls? If you find one, then he isnt a guy. Which guy would go think about another girl whom he doesnt like first? Of course he will think about the girl, and after a while he will miss you when you leave alone him long enough. This is when he most probably would come running back to the girl.
However, under normal circumstances, the girl would start panicking when the guy is off to fill up his love tank, and then starts demanding for an explaination, then he gets pissed, or upset because he feels controlled, and next she feels hurt and blames him. In other words plainly, the girl who doesnt understand the guy is blaming him for doing whats natural and good for the both of them, stopping him from refilling his love tank.
So girls i hope you know what happens with guys now, so just leave them alone...seriously, if the guy really loves you, he will definitely come back.

Euphoric sensation.
Good luck to me who hasnt mugged for mole, but other stuff. That isnt dumb, its jsut plain stubborn and ignorance.

My Holiday next week is going to be insane, i think i will be out everyday but sunday. Then again maybe sunday i would go out and mug.


I dont know whats up with growing up and just being cold, deceitful, unloving, resulting in my plain disgust...maybe the whole equation is proportionate.

"Chaos" is running its rhythms through my head.
Mute Math, is my current addiction.
Letting its beat run create brainwaves in my head before maths lecture start for a whole 10mins or more. Was exceedingly worth the euphoric sensation, before the distasteful lesson.

I have a decent amount of homework to complete. 2 Chem tutorials, 4 maths tutorials, a book to read again, a mole test on tues to mug for, and just simply catching up on studies, and reading ahead, what i am best at =) Oh ya a Trail PI to come up with on tues as well. Gosh!
I have track training on mon, wed, and fri. I should take this more seriously, even though my legs hurt, guess i am going to switch off the pain. Competition on 28th march.

Alright the following events follows as such; 28 th march - Track at SPH
13th April, st gabs concert, still one more song to learn.
SYF drama somewhere from May 14- 16. What more on Summer test week. Better make it.
I hope i dont die in Term 2. Survival is the minimum i ask for, and the most i hope i for, anything beyond Survival is celestial!
Its going to get really challenging having to practice for 3 events simultaneously. What more a Piano to add on.
Crunch time coming soon.


Enable my inspiration to proclaim it still runs in me.

Let the Inspiration flow.


Term 1 has be filled with gazillion bits of fun, i dont know if its going to end soon, hell lot of nonsense, and i am rather glad with my performance for Term 1. Academically i haven't admit defeat, or feel beaten, still feeling confident. Socially, i might have made too many friends, and still making, Gosh, and just having plain fun? Too much of it. But the overdose of this endorphin supplying activity is perfectly fine with me in Term 1.
Oh i also want to get into Pre-U seminar, which might need time and commitment, i have no idea where am i going to find it. And join a few courses here and there. Gosh. I am going to just die la. Sundays would be vital for revision after April 13th.

I picked Chinese Film Art, and News and Broadcasting for my Chinese modules =) Hope i get in.
Sadly Innova's second batch was a disaster, heard they were complacent, hope my batch isnt. I think my batch is rather ambitious anyway, and i seriously want my batch to make it to top 10.
From the mugging rate i see around in school, we stand a chance =)

Today i learnt not to belittle any song that has a plain 3 notes for me to sing throughout the song.


I now have a source to get scores from =)


Yes let inspiration flow.

Maybe leaving someone to wait is just plain selfish...just thinking.


I want to wash away my thoughts.
As Tee puts it, its passive, and it is to me too. Sickening.



Oh my gosh!
I am totally distracted by Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence.

Watched leap years, totally like it. Heh. I think its nice.
But i wonder would i wait so long for someone i love? I think i would, if i am that old, and there is no one else to wait for.
I agree with what they say, its love to resist the sake of having relationships and waiting for the right one.

I want to learn Merry Christmas Mr Lawrence, soon. Even though there are 5 flats, and i dont think i ever conquered any score that has more than 1 sharp so far, i will still try.

Gosh, my tutorials are really piling up, and i;m afraid i would snowball. Gosh, better use my holiday well. Any muggers joining me?
I never knew Robert Frost could appear in leap years as well, think his the most common poet I've been encountering so far, besides Shakespeare.

A slight pinch of fear and apprehension was sprinkled on this delightful yet foreign dish, church of Singapore, Bukit Timah. It was the first time i ate this steak.

It was a really long time since i felt this way, but thank God i had another connoisseur joining me in this adventure. I enjoyed this exciting and sizzling trip. My tongue has been richly rewarded with the flavours of this wonderful dish =)

I felt a little foreign, unused to the usage of mandarin in a youth ministry, but the cell i naturally ended up in was a rather fun, lame and nice one. I find them extremely friendly here, like seriously...

Youth impact ministry is really an impact, there was a year they doubled from 200 to 400. Just in one year! They are 700 strong now, and the area i am in, started of with a cell of 4 girls, and after six years, grew to a 200 strong area. Totally mind blowing. No idea how did they do it.

And it feels good, it took me less than 30 mins to get home =)
Guess i wont be utilising the bus service of 176 and 970 that often anymore.


The inability to conceptualise the belief of a speed comparable to a blink of an eye speaks of your finite capacity. (To no particular individual)

Its amazing how much
I've been thinking
How the neural path connections
Were created in my brain
No matter how much
How much...time passes
It does not erode away.

I dont know what to make...
Out of my feelings,
Undecided in my thinking
Whenever i see something,
Hear that name
Smell that scent
See that smile
Yes that smile,
Unforgettable in all its beauty
The memories just...
Just cant be...
Eroded away.

For the many nights
I sit on my bed
Mentally going through...
Torturing? Musing?
Revising?
Maybe just contemplating
How did things end up
Hanging? Stopped?
Left with an unclear ending
Or maybe just hiatus
A stop in motion
For the existing time frame
Like a car stopped
At the roadside to see other cars pass
By...oblivious to this emotional...
Inertia
A darn long inertia

Its just...a memory
Yet this memory
Like a Crystal ball
Bright at certain angles,
Dark and mystical
In other refractions...
And however strange it appears
A blend of grey and orange
Mixes creating this...this...

Honestly, frankly, truthfully
I am unsure, is bringing this
This...Crystal ball along with me
For better or worse.
It haunts, in measures
That displays a sense of phantom

Pictures flashes through my...
Recurrences of emotional ecstasy
Sets a nostalgic cloak on my...
Struggling depressive motions
Places a pain on this fragile...of mine

I dont know am i fighting to
Get this irrational shadow
Off me, or implore this seen
Yet easy to vanish absence
To stay and remind me
How do i look without the image
Of my...face.
Melancholic?

I considered
The difference in perception
If this pen was given over
To another chosen writer...
How long would the poem be then?
How much would the words used morph?
Would there even be a word penned?

Yet the persona
I speak of
Is still...
Silent...
And most probably would still be
Since its the last line
In this uncertain poem.

I am enjoying each day in IJC =)
I realised today how lucky i am to be find relief in the minimal usage of vulgarities, and to be surrounded by a number of Christians =)
Glad to be found in the company of the Lord's children

Innova didnt make it for soccer match, most prob for basketball match as well, =( But its okay guess we were still kinda supportive of both teams.

Running with Adizero was heaven lot of difference!
Track has too little girls, and cross country has too many girls, we need to break even!

Today is a coincidental day, i met Pete tong on the way to meeting Edwin, i met my brother on the way home. I talked to Janelle and Audrey on the train towards Toa Payoh.

I seriously want to watch Leap years! Most probably at GV Max!

I want to see a culture of supportive, mugging, and having fun people in IJC =) and if possible an encouraging one too =)

Today is the 9th or 10th birthday song i heard so far in IJC. And the whole canteen went into an uproar while the birthday song was sung. But i wonder hows it like if it was my birthday, guess i would be standing looking totally idiotic for four lines.

The reason why i've been posting a lot about my life compared to last year, is the simple fact i have too little time to rethink and re-analyse my thoughts, most of my time is spent either on mugging or having fun =)