I became much more grateful for ending up in Pre U sem.

Thank God i didn't get caught in the mass cohort food poisoning. (In trade for Pre U sem, i missed a "leadership" camp, which is meant for all J1s in IJ.) I remembered regretting going PRS on the first day and they woke us up at 630, when the real opening ceremony is at 9. What did we do?
We had a 45 min breakfast, (FYI it was just a cup of soya bean and a piece of bread) took a bus to auditorium (745am?) and wait all the way till 9, I mean 1hr15mins of stoning? The most unproductive day. This is just the beginning there is more, which i dont wish to go into.
Slackest camp ever. After dinner we are given 2 hours to do our stuff, each day. Which = to Socialising, after supper more socialising all the way till around on average 1?
Thus i am extremely socially drained. I just want to be alone. For now.

My hypothalamus is telling me to stop going out, and take care of yourself, something which i cant do currently. I have piano lesson in 40 mins, a youth conference to attend later on from 2 - 9. Dave reardon is one of the speakers.
I got a feeling sunday is not enough for recharging my emotions.

Hence, i presume i would be writing this on a paper and showing to all who wish to converse with me...

I am currently rather beat, in the social, emotional, mental aspect, and a little on the physical side. My brain is telling me to go home, it says it does not wish to talk to anyone. Thus i am sorry if you really want to talk to me and i arent being a very good friend by not reciprocating. However, please talk to me if there is a fire going on, because i fear i might be too caught up in my own world. Thank you for your understanding.
Its just one of the moments you want silence, you want time to do your own things, to feel like yourself. Yeah i am feeling that way now.


Yeah i might just scribble that on paper.

Anyway my right palm is hurting from the sandcastle challenge, because i am the only guy who knows how to use the shovel effectively. I remembered how one year ago, my hand hurt as well. Orang Asli Mission Trip =)

Are stereotypes inevitable? Discuss.

"Wait, just wait."

It speaks so much about relations, family ties, man and his connection to nature, and its central theme; love.

I was just thinking, some of the people whom i love the most, i too find them the most difficult to talk to.

For one, its my brother.
Its just weird that i do love him quite a lot, even though i have no apparent clarity to what extent.
My issue is that, i never got to settle on which language to use when communicating with him.
Chinese is for casual issues.
English is largely used to communicate for formal and daily events.


I think Lake house is an awesome movie. One of my best movies.
My Best movies list is less than 10, maybe 5? Even though i watched like maybe a thousand movies so far. So yeah the rarity speaks its value.


Just got back from Pre U sem, i have a lot of things to say, but i would leave it to another day.
I am socially drained from it, and kind of need a break from it.
However, i am extremely proud to announce Innova is hosting Pre U sem next year =)

I will post some of the 182 photos i took in Pre U sem another day. There would be more from my group mates, so stay tune.

Right now, back to Lake House.

Alrights Pre U sem is tmr =)

I dont know how i feel about it, but i guess i am half excited? The other half feels like staying home and watching friends, reading books, playing piano and simply slacking.

For those who are going the "leadership" camp (stupid name in my opinion) have fun pls!
I pray the leeches would be nice.

I've been 1/4 way through IJC journey, and its been awesome so far =) Besides the work. Seriously i really feel at home here.

I find Innova JC as a very diverse place, quite confident to say we might just be the most diverse JC around. Sometimes i feel like the only nationalities we lack are Africans and maybe Egyptians?

I love the way we make friend in IJC, as long as we are in the same uniform, we will converse when need be. In Pre U sem i saw how we waited for one another and moved off as a group.
Its like some unspoken bond, or some unseen goal that we all head towards to.

I wonder hows the culture going to be like for IJC in 3 years time. I still dont think there is any stereotype besides its beside sports school and its supposedly innovative.
It is sure innovative with the NMA department.
Niche? Definitely!

I like the idea we are a "starry" school, but our current academics looked like the stars either lost their light, or dropped from the sky.
But seriously i want to see something unique come out from this school, its one of the biggest reasons why i chose IJC.

My batch has many muggers, i wonder if i am one of them.

Alrighty photo time!



Either the camera was hung upside down, or these wine glasses defied gravity.



The two dounts i ate today =)
Awesome!
At E Hub. (Downtown East)



I only remeber to take photos when i am half way through eating.
The reasons why both half bitten, is cause i wanted to try both tastes and leave the nicer one to be devoured later.



...the brown thing isnt a mushroom.
It is a revolutionary mushroom!



This photo is to my future wide =)
There is a ring at the bottom glass, thats why its so shiny! =)



The Plastic Cups gathered to listen to this Revolutionary mushroom.



They were all jolly and filled.
Oh FYI...this was all taken in IJC school concert.
The drinks are for the principals...during the intermission time.



A red shirt guy pointing at a sign.




I just thought it looked cool so i took a photo.
This is the backstage, a place i was stationed in IJ concert.



That thing around my neck, is the thing i "played" with during manging the backstage. I have no idea what its called, cause it only has one...one...yes that ear thingy.
We were suppose to be acting like we were hung, but apparently it didnt work.
Okay i look retarded, oh come on at least i admit it.



While mugging in Buddies, (Beauty World), i decided to take a photo of my ICE tea.
BTW, the people at the back are my churchmates.



Joy and Charles...
looking good?



I dont have fishballs in my mouth, if you were wondering.



Drama kids started cam whoring just because i took my phone to take pics.
They are actually quite good at facial expression, all looked different in each picture.


See what i mean, their faces seldom remain constant.
And Joy's make up was weighing a ton. UBER heavy.
Oh i looked gay enough too with makeup.



I just thought this looked cool. (SAM)



My house.



The typical IJC happenings at 0804.



Love this photo =)


The closest to us, would see our ugliest. Yes i've seen some of the ugliest in human character.
Wayne said this, "Effort is inversely proportional to results."
Mm...


Pre U sem!

I am currently feeling rather annoyed, from last min shopping.Mm...

Loll!

I would blog about summer test.
Here i am and i have a phrase to sum it all up, "It is by far a large scale disaster."
I felt like i was preparing for O level prelims, within 3 days. The content is not as much, but the amount to be absorbed in this short time frame is staggering.
I was wondering if there is a point in testing us prematurely, something Innova is quite good at doing. No one is fully prepared for summer test. In fact most were rather unprepared and did as much as time permits.
After maths paper, i was thinking that maybe...we should call ourselves Insane Junior College. Bet no other JCs had their summer test in this period.
June holiday makes a hell lot of difference for revision.

Summer test has been quite a bumpy ride.
I thought that maybe education wasnt about getting the A s, but instead the tenacity to keep pressing on and staying motivated to learn, even after every setback and failure.
I have a lot more to say for summer test and all, but i am rather saturated and tired now, and would spare you readers the details.

Maybe the problem with us, or what education has done to us, is that we fail to accept failure. We fail to accept our imperfection and only strive for perfection. However true that may be, doesnt that cause us to do something that we are not made to do? Striving for perfection when we by nature, to begin with, are imperfect?
By the way, this short argument given above, is imperfect. It might just be a fallacy, who knows?


I thought about this in one of the chem lectures:
You think you are right, but you are wrong, therefore you are wrong in thinking you are right.

I find it difficult to switch from Gp writing style, to lit, to econs, to maths and chem. Every subject requires a different kind of writing style, and terms and diagrams are used at different areas. I have yet to master the skill of switching styles as and when i want. Guess thats the price to pay for being multi dimensional.
One of my greatest benefit in education at this point in time, would be to learn how to switch writing styles as and when i want.


My heart isnt jumping up and down for Pre U sem, which is arriving in 3 days?
My mind cant really be bothered about piano lesson tomorrow morning, and i have barely touched the piano for past week or so.
I seemed to have failed to recall that i am back stage manager for my school concert on Saturday. That s not true i just did.


The first half of 08 has been awesome, many things in my life changed, but glad God is still here. Honestly, he made this year awesome. It would have been really different without God, so at this point, my heart is filled with deep gratitude for all his doings in my life.



God thank you for holding my hand through this first half of the year, especially the past few days.


Sex is not a basic need, it is a basic function. A basic need would be like water, oxygen and food. If you do not have water, oxygen or food, you will die. However, if you do not have sex you will not die. Hence, sex is a basic function.
- "Relationship" by Dean Sherman


God help me spend my holidays well.
Thanks childhood friend =)

This is so cute! =)

This is so cute! =)

My mind is constantly brewing with ideas, and to deprive it from expressing itself, is a great great sin.

I drew a short list of things i want to do before 30.
I have been playing with the idea of being a teacher for many many years, and the past few days the idea has been residing.
And honestly, i think anyone who wants to earn their million before 30, is simply ignorant, because there is something called inflation happening now on a global scale, and it seems like it has not occurred to them that their salary would inevitably increase as well. Thus earning that million before a certain age now would be easier than it would have been years ago.

I thought about it today, People in JC are learning Uni stuff, sec1 kids are learning sec3 stuff. Information is constantly pushed to an earlier age. Is there a need?
If this continues, what would our kids be learning when we hit age 40? Would they learn why Delta H = MCDeltaT at age 9? Or be given an assumption to prove. (Mathematical Induction)
Better still, write a thesis?

Academic inflation. Our Minister better do something wise about this.
I pondered a few times, why not they go through the curriculum they set themselves, let them really understand what is called stress.
I mean i am appalled that there are parents feeling extreme shock that students stay up to 1am to study for tests or simply completing work. Hello, there are people who dont sleep just to finish work, or complete a project. Gosh...this shows how relax adults are. I mean my CT left for home at 3 today, while i reached home at 9.30? Looks like a student seems more busy than a teacher eh>? No. My claims are inaccurate, but just appease me by nodding your heads. Thank you.

My school was flooded with school principals from sec schools and JCs today and would be so on thursday too. I hope they think IJC is a nice place.

Relationships - Dean Sherman: Bought by Abel. Given to my brother for his birthday last year. I read this book, found a lot of insightful stuff. Its liberating to know that we are all created to be attracted to other people, be it similar or opposite genders. Its not a sin to be attracted to people, but it is a sin to lust.
Attraction = I think he or she is cute/gorgeous/handsome
Lust = I want to sleep with him/her
Lust devalues people, because we omit the real value beneath the looks.
We are currently living in a society that has inflated the importance of looks.

I thought to myself a few days ago, why did Jesus 3 closest friends slept while he prayed.
I wonder how many times we treat our closest friends like these. Blatantly put it, Like shit.

Drama SYF tmr. Please at least get a silver. Given the circumstances, a silver would look sparkling enough.
Gp + Chinese paper on friday.
Concert dry run after Gp paper.
Pre U sem briefing on sat.

There are two reasons why people at my age would do badly for their tests. They never study, or they just dont know how to answer to the question, meaning out of point.
Once again, has low grades prove that we are stupid? I strongly object.
What has good grades proved? That these people are good at conforming to certain systems.
Education, in my opinion, should have never been on a massive scale, because education has always been on a personal level. Every one's experience is different.

The pinnacle of human live form = the ability to make a better difference.

God perform some miracles when i sit for GP, Chinese, Lit, Econs...actually on all the papers i sit for. Thank you =)


Thanks CT, for the mm....

Viva la Vida - Coldplay.

One of my greatest challenge in life, is to stop comparing, and look within.

Effort does not equate to good results, it merely increases the chance of it.
I still find this equation true, as much as i slog to prove it wrong.
And from the crap results, i slog my way through the day.

Another challenge, is to maintain stability in my walk with God.
I guess this lesson, will take a lifetime.

I wanted to post the names here.
But i am sure half the people i want to go out with dont come to my blog. Okay maybe 1/3.

So i shall just send personal invitations, and arrange a time to go out with you guys and girls!
But the first week is out, PRE U seminar Camp. Looking forward to that.
Other days?
Are meant for studying, going out, changing my blogskin (Finally), learning how to make sushi (Enough of outside food) cell outing (Sushi Buffet = 300 plates target!) And yes PW. Lets get an A for this. Please, we put in quite a bit of effort.

Treasured ones, await for my invitation, i am sorry no red carpets, but letters/emails are affordable.
Those who wish to date the charming me, let me know =)

So long till 22nd May. Maybe later...? Hopefully not earlier.

God take care of my friends and readers while i am away. Trust you to do that totally =)

I am not going to touch the computer all the way till end of summer test, 22nd May.
I will only use the computer for PW purposes.
I will be a good boy, stop slacking, and continue preparation for summer test.
I will finish all my work in the name of Jesus! :D Amen!
I will not submit to stupid temptations like computer games. (At this age, what a disappointment Joey)
I am only ALLOWED to use the computer on Saturday = my relax day.
I will pray when i feel tiredness oozing out of my soul.
I will use the phone to invest into people, make arrangements, call up for work purposes.


OMG!!! Summer test in 9 days. Thats a friday, with chinese and GP paper. More or less prepared for Gp, but chinese is pretty unstable. Never failed so badly in my life before. Loll. I mean i got a U. But i was in no condition for it anyway.


God i doubt the statements i made up there. I seen myself fall flat on these kind of stuff. Please help me ask you for help, endurance, determination, motivation, and seriously strength, and the ability to see the importance of summer test relating to promotion. I dont want to get retained, i wont be able to accept that reality. I mean summer test is 40% Totally sweet :D
But judging on the conditions, few started, thanks to PW, and all the stupid work we have to manage.
Oh man, i want so much more than just promotion, but my effort and attitude...thumbs down.

The downfall of technology is that it has the ability to throw you off course.

I've been experiencing a lot of mental Inertia.

Today i learnt that i lack something called: Resilience.

I cant study for 14 hours...with occasional breaks. I managed approximately 5 - 6 today? But in that 5 i did quite a bit. So yeah.
This lack of resilience is a disadvantage. But i am still largely in love with the way i can churn out 10 ideas in 5 mins. It happens when i am high on inspiration. Well...no one can really testify to that...because i only do that when i am alone, and usually traveling on bus or train.
I have yet to find someone churning out ideas at such a fast rate...
I would very much like to meet one.

I need something more than this.
Summer test is 11 days away. Preparation?
I've been doing everything but maths.


"I would lose the universe, just to spend eternity with you." - God

This is random.

I totally love my dimples.
And my hair can look pretty awesome, but that awesome look usually last about one week only. So the rest of the weeks, i just look like crap =)

Thank God for making me sound sick in front of the doctor, when i wasnt at all. Earned an MC. But am i really sick?

Its the first time i give up mugging for a test.
I received 0 tutorials on this chapter.
No exam questions to guide.
Just finished the chapter this Friday.




I have a wish...
And that is that some people in my life will one day grow up and say...

I have grown. I have changed.
You made that difference in my life. You've been there to see me grow.
You've been there when i need an ear.
Thank you.
You are greatly loved and appreciated, treasured too.

I hope the people whom i am addressing know who they are.

Today i drew up a list of people whom i want to go out in June.
Its staggering, because there are more than 10. I doubt i have enough time in June.

Childhood friend, you are one of them =)
Its nice to only reserve that title specially to you only =)

God thank you for talking to me throughout this whole day. And making my end of this week a pleasant one =)
You are loved.

God defied the laws of economics. Simply because, he has an infinite amount of resources.
The heart of economics is due to unending greed, and finite resources.

If you think peace is an acronym for suffering, think again.

True peace is experienced only amidst suffering.

Just like the eye of the tornado is the most calm, the eye of suffering is peace. Peace doesn't occur before or after the suffering, but during it. Right smack in the epicentre of it.

Christ suffered, but He didn't suffer in vain. Because there was peace amidst the suffering, or rather, He was peace.

Christ = Peace - 1)
Peace = Epicentre of suffering - 2)

Substitute 1) into 2)

Christ = Epicentre of our suffering

There can be no peace if suffering didn't exist. Because i believe that suffering is God's unique way of conveying to us the simple message - He's Jehovah Shalom, our God of peace.

I'm not trying to say that there is no suffering at the epicentre of suffering. Because peace isn't the absence of suffering. It is the stillness of your soul during your suffering.

I heard this song on American Idol "I've got Jesus and gravity". Okay, i doubt that's the title. But finally, i see the link.

Jesus is our centre of gravity. My centre of gravity will pull me back to the core.

For you, a limitless times over (:

If it makes you smile. Do it.

Read the above line and apply some lit concepts.

My new line from a convo with a classmate who wants to drink Milo mcflurry, yet worry about her weight.

If it makes you smile. Do it.

Of course no violation of people's morals and values.

I am glad this classmate is able to make me smile for the first time since yesterday, after all the constant crap Wayne gives. Half his crap isnt funny, but when its funny, its really funny.

There are many things going in my head.
Chem Spa, was a rescued disaster. But the remnants clearly show the storm it went through.
PW has always been a pain in the ass. I finally understand what Sherman Wong meant last year when he told me, "Barely surviving." In his description of JC life.
Test on monday, preparation is almost nil.
I have too much to say about last night, but i dont wish to say anymore. Simply cause i want to stop thinking, but one thing is clear, my motivation for turning up, was self centered, and out of formality.
Thanks CT for doing that great favour for me. I wish i didnt have to say those words, but to earn your company i guess i did.
I thought about it...Ignorance is bliss, to the first person, but blistering to the third person.


I doubt the effect and impact i made. But if it really did, then okay...

I'll still think. But i am going to surrender one day. I haven, i still had expectations, as much as i simplified it, anything below this, would have simply resulted in no expectations.
Guess i am no longer bothering myself with this.

Denial? Totally.

And i cant put myself to sleep.
Too many thoughts are running across my brain.
I have a chem spa to face today. Mind you, its the real thing. I will most probably choose maths lecture to sleep on.
The thoughts are largely based on what happened last night.

I agree...sometimes people are just at a different level from you.
Level meaning...communication differences.
I realised, if my friend isnt genuine, i would most probably discard him/her.
If my friend violate my values and morals, in excessive measures, i would discard him/her too.

I agree...surrendering has always been painful, if not it wont be surrendering. But if so much hurt is experienced when you try so hard to hold something together, then surrendering isnt that hard anymore.

I agree...that suffering exists so that joy can be found. I believe there are a bunch of people living on this earth that dont ask this question, "Why did God allow suffering?" I found the answer to this burning question in some people's head. Hope their brains arent fried by now.
The answer is...if there is no suffering, would you even find God?
If there is no suffering, is the value of joy as great?
Sufferings has always drawn us closer to God.
Manipulative? Maybe...but then again, who would not seek attention from his/her creation?



Academic inflation.

Public education has educated us out of creativity. State your opinion.

I want to run.
But i would be running on a hungry stomach.
I will make my final decision after playing piano.