I admit i am beat. For all the 5 hours of sleep i have.
Disclaimer: I am really tired , but i want to record down these thoughts and feelings, so pardon the obscure grammar sense.
Listening comprehension was fine?

If you are lazy, please skip the next paragraph.

I love my power point presentation =) i poured in hours into lit presentation. Even though it isnt worth that many hours, i still did it. Credit should go to Candice too.
Linh saw the power point, she told Candice it was a piece of art, Candice said so?...
Linh later on commented that i am too creative to be in this school...
I will keep that in mind.
Some of the things Linh said were deep, i considered them before. She might just be the first person in Innova whom i think has really deep thinking.
She said that if you used too many words to express an art, it is then no longer a piece of art.
I just think the current education system lacks a lot on nurturing creativity.
I happen to manage to keep myself aloof. Still yet to find someone else...its okay, i am unique, so i think i can hardly find anyone close.
I might just find out that entering into Poly, helps me see the world in ways i never see before, here creativity deepened its roots. JC helped me express my creativity in words and critically look at certain issues and to consider it from a multi dimensional perspective.
The best of both sides...i did not waste my one year. In fact last year was a vital year and it changed a lot of aspects in my life.

If you are still lazy, just give up reading this post.

I wish there was more milo in my cup.

I am a sentimental person, and pretty nostalgic. I guess thats why i am more right brain dominant. I realised the way i treat love is pretty different from others. There are too many things imprinted to wash them away. Guess thats why it means so much. I wonder if i would stand the test, that i will prove myself. That if it takes 10 years to prove you love someone, just by waiting, i would do it.
There are two most important promises i make in my life, and i uphold them like the ten commandments. I promise to walk with God all the days of my life. I promise to keep my promises to the best of my ability to whatever i promise to the one i love.

I just went back for st gabs concert. Seeing faces that made that change in those 4 years, washed back a sense of nostalgic feelings. I like it, at the same time, i am fearful of it. I am fearful i cannot handle the excitement at the same time the memories. Like sometimes you wish you were younger now. You wish you werent where you are now for a few seconds because innocence tastes so sweet. You wish you would love certain people more in your life back then. I dont have regrets, these are just wishes.
I guess those who grown to love their school much more after graduating will relate to how i feel. The perfect remedy for my fear...is simply finding the peace in God, and knowing he is taking charge of everything.

Please glance through this paragraph.

I see how God worked in vocal, it was "magic" with his hand behind it. Its more than a CCA, its a part of my life, where many memories are formed. It may just be pieces to some people, but they were milestones to me. It was a journey, and i made it through. All the nonsense we went through, all the out of tune notes, all the difficult pieces with changing the key 8 times (Deep river), the pieces we never landed up on the right key for the last note (The lion sleeps tonight) The piece that moves my heart if sung with deep melancholic emotions (Prayer of the children) The piece sang with crescent girls, by far the weirdest, and yet the most thrilling piece. Disneyland =) (To the stars) The awesome jazz piece (Rock in the land? Not sure of the name ) I wish i had the scores with me now, but i cant find it. This is one of my deepest regret.
The places where we sang. The competition we went through. The announcement when we got silver for the first entry into SYF. The announcement that they got Gold last year. I wonder if it would be gold with honours next year. And now being the alumni, you see the legacy you left behind, you see the legacy being carried on. You see how the young one looks up to you, and dreams i will be like them one day. I will sound like them one day. How new and better talents seem to reproduce every year. How each year the bar is raised. Its more than just these words.
It is a lot more.
Trust me, a lot more...

I saw Samantha in the MRT. The last time i talked to her was years back...maybe 3 - 4 years back? She barely changed, as beautiful. It was a simple exchange, she bombarded me with the typical questions of how abouts. I wished i could ask the same thing, but i dont even know her family. More than that, it was that old megalife we used to have. Homely, she describes it. I wonder how many people younger than me even know who is Samantha. I am contented with life, so i am fine that i was too young back then to own the culture those megalifers once had. I think its impossible to go back, it was past glories. Megalifers should do what they can to create a culture they can own and be proud of. I pray that in Jesus's name amen. This is my prayer for Megalife.

I remember the first day i went into P6 cell. I remember queuing up and see who was in my cell. I remember i wished Nat was in my cell. She wasnt, but i had others whom i know in my cell so it was okay. How jonathan suen brought us to lan after exams. Some of the P6 games we played. My first ever serious crush. It was mm...
The best part, was Megalife used to be packed with people in grace chapel. True Love waits.
I find it scary, that these things seem so near, but the truth is that its more than this.
How i shared this testimony which totally embarrassed me =( it was bad. Trust me. Seriously.
Youth EE. Being the youngest then. Camps were Woah back then! Since then camps werent as power packed. I wonder am i passing comments or judgments. Is it all together justified?
Whatever it is, my prayer still holds. Because that was my prayer a few years ago. And i seen how Seng Kang and Central Area came to exsitance. I REMEMBER I PRAYED HARD FOR THESE TWO AREAS. And they were conceived a year or two later.
So for those who are in central and seng kang area, know that i am one of those who prayed for your area. More than that, know that God answer prayers.

Sorry for the long post, it was for those who really wanted to take a closer look at my history.
God is still writing this story, and i am contented with it. Satisfied.

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I wonder what was it like when Jesus was in the tomb, and "woke" from his "sleep". Was there rejoicing in heaven? Did Jesus blink? Did Jesus rub his eyes? Did Jesus pray? Did he say thank you to God? I would like to ask God this when i reach haven.

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My prayer still holds.
Megalifers should do what they can to create a culture they can own and be proud of.