My words contain embedded messages to special individuals in my life.

I feel out of place.
I've always felt this way.
Its weird that you feel weird about your individuality, uniqueness, and how God created you.
Maybe life is part of learning how to accept what God made you to be. How God made you different.
(CAR)

I feel like I'm 17, living with a bunch of classmates who really act like 17. It doesnt seem like a fact that i can buy alcohol, smoke, and get trialled in supreme court and end up in jail. It seems unreal. I have yet to accept that fact i guess.
(Classmates)

I am starting to mug =)
(Elvin)

I am excited about Friday, cause my beloved and missed brother is finally flying away from kimchi. Which means i will go airport, which is a place i've been wanting to go for a week.
I would be able to meet a precious friend on Friday =)

I am currently happy as i await in anticipation for all these events to unfold. The long weekend too =)
I would most probably go back to megalife this weekend, but i feel bad for pang seh-ing COS. Starting to feel at home there. I think i would miss the people there badly too when i move on. I am glad i am not making the effort to make friends over there. Seriously, i dont want to make friends over here in COS. Cell is more than enough.

Most of the time my dreams consist of people whom i miss, long to be with, or have not seen for a very long time. Visiting Ian's blog definitely brought back memories and how it was like in Poly cell, even though it was not a cell that impacted my life deeply or brought tons of growth, but it definitely brought serenity, comfort, and the 2 precious friends were more than comforting.
(Nat and Ian)
I wish i was there. I guess I've been to too many places and gain the ability to miss too many people. The price to pay for living in a place where all of your close friends live everywhere but near you.

I learnt the difference between treasured, and precious friends.
Treasured are those whom you can confide in, precious are those who you don't want to lose.
(Cheryl Tan)

I wish i was there to see the smiles of my precious friends, since they are precious their smiles, or whatever that made them must smile, must have been precious.
(Treasured ones, particularly Nat and Ian in poly cell)

I am still debating.
Passion, then commitment.
Or Commitment then passion?
I think i am pro - former.
However, CCAs would promote the latter even if you lacked or lost the passion.
I guess i lost the passion for singing.
I've been hopping around so many CCAs that some relations might have turned sour, it isnt fatal to my social life, but it should have been avoided, but my hopping brought me intangible knowledge and experience.
(Jill)

I lost 700g, in half an hour.
200g in the toilet, and 500 from simply running around.
And i am out =)

I skipped **** today at home, when no one was around. It was interesting. My socks were literally soaked.

The sense of inferiority actually still feels real. God i pray you help me remove it, or you remove it, in the next few years. I am eroding it i guess. My imagination is...exhilarating as usual, however few appreciates, even fewer understands.
My future wife doesnt have to imagine like the way i do, but God i pray she understands and appreciate it all together. No i trust you to bless me with someone like this. YOu Know Best.

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God my prayer remains.
My answer's the same.
With just one aim.
To glorify your name.

To wait
To be patient.
To have self control.
To write the most beautiful
Love story many would remember.

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A decade and a thousand miles away.


Jesus