JC life as many has said, is no life.
To a large extent i am testament to that.
To another large extent, there are JC kids who did really cool things, at least enough to show they have a life.

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I am currently feeling mind raped. Candice coined this term.
Its emphatic in its nature. But i guess that goes to show how bad the condition my brain is in.
It horrendously suck, when you are dumped with information you do not understand, or digest, or capture. You are forced to do work on it. And when you get a breather, you feel guilty or you cant really slack with peace in mind, because you know more work awaits your poor soul when you finish slacking.

In JC, they incessantly (Never stopping) keeps pouring new information into your head. Each clinical, and easily desensitising to the soul who feels in intangible ways. (I realise i see a lot of soft stuff, i mean details, people behaviour stuff like that...and sometimes JC just wants the hard stuff...zzz)

I had this image in my head.
When new information keeps pouring in, like the number of people dying from Rawanda genocide, discrimination, Lurie and his sick nature looking for redemption, Kink demand curve, and all the inflation, chemistry that seems so minor when you look at the above stuff mentioned, and maths which is highly frustrating to the brain which finds it daunting to conquer the whole tutorial, since there are usually approximately 16 questions, and each questions having many intricate details to it....it is just sick!
PW to add on, which has driven my poor CT (Who i maybe for the first time found the heart to emphatise his efforts, and really really saw his care, fell sick while trying to push our grades up, who is inexperienced in this, becuase its his first year for PW, so are many teachers, and i think IJ is screwed big time for the PW department) sick sick sick.... =(

You feel time constraint...you are simply overwhelmed. Not handing in homework, can be a norm, copying homework to hand in time, can be a norm too. It may be fewer subjects, but each subject's demand is just too much to handle at times.

Back to the image i had...all these nonsense keeps wrapping around your heart and desensitising it. SO much so that your heart starts to slow down, its like thrash, black gooy liquid oozing out of your heart, and the heart finds it hard to keep running on. And you try to rip things off your heart, all these desensitising stuff, yet you have little time to do so, because more would just flood in day after day...when you finally cant beat the rate of additional desensitising element due to lack of time...you meet the demon within = emotional breakdown / burnout.

JC life can be one that forces you to look too little into your own emotions, and think too much in technical and clinical ways.

Those who avoid such atrocities inflicted in the human mind, thank God for their brains, but i guess they have lower EQ as well, and are rather insensitive in some sense to begin with.

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They said Singapore has one of the lowest index.
Walk on the streets and see for yourself.
Select 10 individuals, nope no couples! Just people alone...
Count the number of people, whose lips tell you they are smiling...
I sat on the bus today, and saw none. NONE.
I wonder is it really that difficult to smile, but scientists has proven that smiling takes lesser muscles than frowning, so why are our lips sunken?

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Adam Khoo gave a 2 hour talk today.
The school has managed to cut a deal with him.
He will conduct a workshop for IJC students, learning ways to learn.
He usually charge a private client (students) 1600 bucks, our school got him to charge 150 bucks.
The school will sponsor 250 students for that 3 day workshop.
IJC seriously invested a lot to my batch.
Its the first time this year, they sponsor the whole J1 cohort to go for a camp that cost about 25o bucks per head.

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Thanks Candice for the positive reinforcement.
I really treasure and value it.
But kinda belittling yourself wasnt erm...that plesant...but it was needed to prove your point. Oh wells. I lost the capacity to justify my actions, my thinking, and the words that i speak.

I've been fluctuating on my self perception. I am quite confident that i am smarter than our classmates, but hearing it from another person, is a whole different experience.
I was wondering what defines smartness?
I prefer to be intelligent.
And i know intelligent people at times do not do well in academics.