The terrors of EoM has once struck my poor soul.

I consulted mr Hazrin today. Enlightenment shone its beam down on me. At this last hour, i was offered a path of salvation, yet it might have been too late for salvation to reach me as a i see the door shut before my eyes.

I cant exactly blame myself. Some of my classmates and i were merely instructed to redo and our ST simply pointed to where was wrong, made no mention how our amendments are to be done, and called our ideas useless. Our efforts over many hours were labelled: Useless. Demeaning.

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In the beginning of this year, I kept thinking to myself, is JC a life where you have no free time for yourself, and you constantly study? The past few weeks, and the next few weeks, will prove this assumption true.

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Sleeping time, as i once said, is now considered a luxury to me.

Its a luxury, simply by economic terms, demand is high, supply is low, thus causing a shortage, which makes it a "luxury".

If any of you my readers have realised how all my post's grammar is just warped, and the syntax seems absolutely wrong, this is what studies have done to my brain. I lost simple cognitive functions.

Most of the time i have to edit my posts numerous times before it looks decent enough.

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I messaged Candice this evening, " Smile, through God s strength you will smile. The Joy of the Lord is your strength. I pray God will sustain you. Amen!"

Now this prayer i pray it upon myself.
At this moment when i feel time is pressing down on me, i trust God.

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I hate to feel so torn apart, by work, by people around me.
Especially when i have to wreck my brain over opportunity cost. PW or Promos?

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If you care, and you hurt your close friend, and when you do not care, stand aside and see your close one get hurt, which is better?

Which explains why there is so much lying, superficiality, and insecurities between people, and so little truth and authenticity, since every time you speak up for truth you run the risk of losing a friend.

I guess that is why our parents either go through a numbing process and not care at all, or they keep scolding no matter how unreasonable.

A lot of times, we as children complain that our parents do not understand us, but after a few years of scolding and growing, i realized it was me who never understood their intentions and love then.

I thank them for not giving up on loving me.

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Done with EoM =)

Thanks Desiree and Candice.

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Blogging keeps me sane i guess.
I visited my cob webbed like Facebook found so many un glam photos.
I will officially start using Facebook after promos and join in all the stupid games my clique is playing now.

KS go study la!

Looking at certain faces on Facebook, made my mood go up by two =)

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I will be having lessons from 750am - 440pm without a single break.
Nope no lunch, no break.
If i didnt count wrongly, thats 8hours and 50 mins of lessons =)

Dont worry, i wont starve to death, even though i will be fasting, i will still find time to eat. My teachers and lessons do not override my hunger.