I am lost for words when i think about how amazing my God is.

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I went to sauna alone.
Rather physically alone.
God challenged me at 15th minute to stick through to the 30th minute.
It really felt like an hour.
Alone, suffering in heat, bathed in my own sweat, the heat choking my throat.
It was more than bearable.
If not for God talking to me, i would have quit at 18th minute.

He taught me about how to focus on Him and not the heat.
He made me feel a fraction of what Daniel felt in the burning furnace.

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God keeps revealing to me bit by bit the significance of the cross.

It was not the pain that was unbearable.
It was more than our sins.
It was more than the weight of the world.

Alright, think about every single painful moment in your life,
the rejection,
the hurt,
the wounds,
the past memories,
the failures,
every single one.
Add all of them up.
Now add every single human's pain and affliction together, throughout the existence of this earth.
Now put it on one innocent man.
No one, no matter how noble, or strong, can bear that intense magnitude of burden and pain.

Jesus was the only candidate.
He had all the right to turn it down.
The very reason there is Christmas, is because He chose not to turn down that assignment.
If Jesus refused, He would not have laid foot on earth.

He made a choice, and because of that choice, i breathe today.

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I spent this year fighting for a dream, the biggest dream that ever came across my path.
But i guess at this point, God convinced me enough.
And His dream is much more secured.

Ever taught that God considered your dream "ten times" more thoroughly than you?
Remember He does not need to sleep, so while you sleep, He held your dream in His palms and looked at it from all angles.
Considered it and made a decision.
His dream is better than ours.

How dumb can we get and still argue with Him about our dream and refuse to let go?

I choose His dream over mine.

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I breathe because of His choice.
And His string of choices started on December 25th.