We live when we learn to take one step at a time.

Jordin sparks.

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I think Cantonese is an utterly gorgeous language.
I imagined heaven to be a place where there are many services conducting simultaneously, in different languages.
God beamed with pride and said, "I created all the languages."

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Last night was one of the most interesting and memorable nights of my life =D

I guess i felt the grace of God so simply.
Invited to a dinner and dance at tanglin country club by a cell mate.
I have no relation to the firm, so does car chai and ian.
I had a free buffet, with no time limit.
Food inclusive of salmon, sushi, all kinds of meat, log cake and la la la.

Singing from 3 incredible voices.
Sangeetha's voice was enough to make chai and car 's eyes to pop out.
Oh she pulled off Mariah Carey's When you believe.
Seriously how many people can do that?
According to chai if Sherman sounded good, Gerald, my primary school friend was better.
Superb overtone.
Yin peng who also actually looked like the guy from princess hours was able to pull off Oh Holy Night, which is like uber tough.
And he changed his tone immediately when he dive into the next song by A1.
Stunning performance.
I just had to stop eating to watch them sing.
And they each earned a hundred bucks for just singing at a dinner, with free buffet.

The weirdest thing was that everyone of us got comfortable at a totally foreign environment.
It was literally crashing a dinner and dance, and it was celebrating a never heard before firm's 30th anniversary.
The amazing thing was that the founder / CEO of the firm shifted us up to better seats, and shook our hands firmly with a smile.
Doesn't this sound like some parable?

Guess that is what grace does to us, it gets us comfortable with God.
We had no right to enjoy God's love and mercy, but grace welcomes us.

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Tag reply to Candice.

Car usually looks cute when she doesn't give this stare.



A break from quality photos.
This was taken by handphone.
Sorry mei for making you so unglam =D



I've been thinking a lot about anger.
I was wondering if most of us are governed by this emotion.
And the answer is yes.
The whole world is.
Every raped victim falls into this trap, and i pray they get out of it.
Every child soldier is infused with rage, and they kill mercilessly because they are filled with anger.
As simply as you are frustrated with your parents for nagging or scolding you, then yes you contain anger.
Its the extent, and magnitude that differs.

The scary bit about anger is that if you fail to forgive, you choose to self destruct.
It is explosive.
When anger is at its worst stage, you will eventually rot off every single relationship, because you are negative, constantly complaining, and no one would like someone like this.
Hitler brought his anger towards Jews to action.
The atrocities are testament.

We harbour anger towards three different parties.
Someone else.
Yourself.
God.

Anger works like this.
"You owe me."
A debt is created, because someone stole something from you.
For example, a father left the family, and the child is left angry.
The father owes the child protection, love ....
But how can the father repay, even if he is repentant?
(This is the bit where our entire year's study on Disgrace comes into play, Truth and Reconciliation, is that ever enough?)
The father cannot turn back time, to undo his mistakes.
So the child has two choices, continue to live on in anger, or forgive the father.


CANCEL THE DEBT.
A lot of us mistake this bit.
Even me.
Moving on in life, doesn't necessarily mean we canceled the debt, we can simply ignore it.
Bury it.
Bury this dark spot, never to be mentioned again.
Banish it, erase it, throw it out of our vision.
But, isn't it still there?
The way to go about this is to face it.
CANCEL THE DEBT.

But how much is the debt?
Who owes you that debt?
Write out a list of names, who has hurt or offended you.
Write out what they stole from you.
Then tell yourself, "You don't owe me anymore."

Angry people are stubborn by nature.
That is why they refuse to forgive.
They have valid reasons not to forgive, they want the opposite party to REPAY every single bit.

Yet Christ called us to forgive.
This is the bit where we focus on the stakes, the ______ that was stolen from us.
The stakes i placed on the table in front of God looked really convincing to me, it always does.

Then God convicted me.
That nailed it.
I was left speechless.
There was no ground to rebutt.
I only heard silence after that statement.
God allowed the silence to hang.
He allowed His son to hang on the tree.

"You stole my son."
"My one and only son."

So that we would find the grace there, to forgive those who had stole from us.

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Let me be once again reminded.
I am flawed.