I am contemplating.
Not of suicide but on humanity.

The two general reasons i can conclude why people divorce, is first, failure to accept flaws, and failure to change for the better. Usually, it is a combination of both.

The closer i get to my friends, the more evident their flaws are. I don't blame God that i am observant by nature, when it comes to this aspect. I am still thankful for this though.
But i find it frightening, that all these flaws i see, creates repulsion between me and people. The more flaws i see, the less i value my friends, and eventually they would become less than strangers if i do not do anything about this.

I created this small little table in my head.
Stage 1: People who Only and ONLY sees the good side of people.
Stage 2: People who Sees both the good and bad side of people. The bad side outweighs the good side.
Stage 3: People who Sees both the good and bad side of people, and yet found the grace to accept both.

I am currently parked at stage 2. I asked God why am i parked that, as it seems to me stage 1 is nicer than stage 2. Then He told me, at least you are not ignorant.

We know that God accepts us all, not simply because we are His creation by default, but because He loves, unending in His grace.
Imagine God, measures us with perfect standards, what would we look like?
Yeah, He is good God and He would not do something like this.
Then why do we expect/presume our friends to be perfect?
Okay, they aren't perfect, then why cant you accept them?
Isn't the failure to accept their imperfection an expectation that they should be perfect?
Have you forgotten, you are flawed too?

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By human nature, we are always finding reasons to sigh over.
But let us be reminded, rejoice and rejoice always.
Find reasons to rejoice.
There will always be one.
Christ resurrected.

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I fear that i am turning into an unloving, reptile like creature.
But i am sure God will do something to prevent that.