It is 40 days left to A levels...

This is the countdown!
40 day fast from internet and computer...
Jesus did it.
So can i :D

I will only be contactable by phone.

Finally Blogger has got their act up together again...

Photos! The next time i get back here...would be the start of A levels.
This is more than the last lap...
The end is near...and that makes me smile.

A few photos in commemoration of my results so far.
Having achieved a worse grade in chem for prelim 2 than prelim 1, even though after mugging...how interesting. Heh.

Jesus please stay with me.
Amen.
And Yes child like faith...just like how You showed me today.

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Time is ticking...
Away



Consistently.

And so i



Mugging



Frantically.

And when i am beat, exhausted and tired...
This



Will cheer me on.

Above all...let my heart continue to have...



Child Like Faith.

And when A level s is done...
I will be like this boy...



Smiling like the world is made of candies.

It is 50 days to A LEVELS...
I would be half way through the 100 days mark.

JC life has been...a bumpy ride...
I am nearing the end...of this ride...and would continue my life on a different vehicle.
I am lost with words to express and describe my JC life...i thought i had many words...but...

Was two years too fast?
Yet there were so many things that happened as well.
Maybe everything happened too fast that i didnt have enough time to remember what happened.
Maybe i spent too much time thinking about studies.
Maybe i am so numb to what happened already.

I am glad to say walking near God the past few days feels awesome.
Feels certain and secured.
Blessed are those who put their trust in Him.

Prelims was an overkill...
I know...

I need time to sit down and think about my past 2 years in IJC...
But i am afraid i might not find the memories to recollect as studies took up 80% of my brain space.
The other 20% of the brain space is used to activate the 80%.

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What really matters to me?
That i can answer...
What really matters to me now?
The answer that i give to the second question does not tally with the first.

Things are starting to settle down...somehow...
I should start praying for my friends again...
Start...what needs to be started...

The following line would reflect my current frame of thought.
I am sitting down...and thinking why am i sitting down.

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My friend told me this over the Msn convo..

Friend... says (11:04 PM):
i can nvr forget the way he asked for my number when we were supposed to part n nvr meet again
Called To Scintillate (Me) says (11:04 PM):
Wa.
how did he ask?
hahaha
Friend... says (11:05 PM):
i was tired so i was squating and den he asked do u think we can still talk like this again
den i say sth like if got fate jiu will
den he borrow my handphone and type his number in
den i totally melted
i was quite ok with not contacting him b4 he did tt

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My answer to life right now...
Go ask God.

I think romance is just all a fantasy.
The real love stories...are difficult to pen, and painful to hear.

It was really nice talking to Abel...
after so long.

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I crafted this poem in 6 minutes before assembly this morning...
I am feeling much better now...after lots of sleep :D
I love the concept though...
Lalala

TIME OBSERVING ME
I am alive,
but dead.
Awake and walking.
Breathing yet suffocating.
My pace is both
Hurried and slow.
Without hesitation, I slave for
a sleepless master.
Oddly, I chained myself to the
shackles provided by this tyrant.
It has robbed me of
my life,
innocence,
and ability to run
Away.

I slog, strive, succeed
only in yawning more each day.
Then i feel Dejected, Elated and
Frustrated, Glee Like that
Moron. Nonsensical.
What sin have i committed
to deserve this death penalty?

Pounding and palpitating,
the clock sends ripples of urgency,
down
my
spine.
As time gently ticks,
so does this pen furiously race to the
end of this poem.
Was there a finishing line?
Maybe i ran pass it...
I finally stop,
and question myself...
Who am i, now?
Has the day just begun
or has
it
ended?

Mr Kelvin Sim asked, "How many of you are procrastinators? Raise your hand."
Wayne then turned to me and said, "I will raise my hand later."

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Memoirs of a bugger...

I wish

• i can be at Esplanade enjoying some form of visual art
• i can be some where eating something that shocks my taste buds
• i would be sitting in a plane flying to somewhere else on earth
• i get into airforce and learn how to fly a plane
• that i can stop studying now, at least not by haunted my notes
• i can weave poetry that people quote
• i read so much more of the bible
• stay over at all my friend s place
• play frisbee and smile like the sun shines
• go to mission trip and witness God's awesome Hand move!
• drink a nice cup of hot chocolate
• to skate in skate park
• get to take photos that i just have to smile
• that cell group can spend more time together, going out eating and lala
• i stop wishing and live like more than a conqueror
  
• i will feel liberated to go to explore the internet and not be stuck at those few sites
• i could just sit at the airport and look at the planes fly
• i could just sit at a hotel and enjoy the couch
• i could watch and wach so many movies...
• i could go to the beach and enjoy the sun, sand, day
• i think about God more.
  

• i meet these following people..if possible all by tmr...

Chai. Abel. Jolynn. Joy Seng. Nat Yeo. Adam Aw. Audrey Lim. Jilly Girl! Geraldine Kong!
Joshua Sho!
...(Please fill in your name if you miss me and want to see me soon.)

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The airforce computerised test is the most difficult test i ever sat for.