In the beginning God created the Heavens and the earth. The words read on, but my thoughts drifted away.

Since God is both omnipotent and omnipresent, He must have known that Adam and Eve would have sinned by choosing that forbidden fruit over His love. He must have been there witnessing the act before it occurred, before He started creating. If He knew why would He have planted the tree of knowledge of good and evil in the first place? Sin would not have entered. Death would not exist. Even if He planted it, why not intervene when Adam and Eve ate? He still planted it there anyway. One word. Why?

Aside the questioning, it has already happened, we are here now.

I cant quite exactly recall when I first though about raising up my own kids. Like time, it just happened, years before I met Tracy. I’ve always imagined the values, morals and words I wanted to impart into the lives of my kids. The life I wanted them to have. Those thoughts formed their being out of love. Oh, if only they knew how much I think about them, my thoughts would outnumber the grain of sands by the shore. I call my daughter an absolute beauty, and my son a victorious champion.

Things would definitely be different if Tracy’s heart still beats. The silence between the kids and I would not have been so deafening.

The question does not escape me. Have I been a good dad? I’ve worked hard to keep this roof up, sheltering us for years, but have I equipped my children well enough to keep their own roofs up? Deep within, I know I have given them my best, my everything. I would do noting to withhold the best from them. I tried my best to cloth them in the right character. I may have given them my best, but it is up to them to accept it. Beyond all these efforts, some day my children will know how much I love them.

I silent my feelings and focused back down into the truth.

The words ran on, and another contemplation interrupts.

When Adam and Eve sinned, they sewed fig leaves yet no matter whatever we used or do to cover our wrongdoings, it will never suffice. God knew it was not enough. This is where He intervened. He showed up.

The creator of the universe who placed the stars in their places now places a new cloth on them.

Innocent blood and an eternity of brokenness in exchange for a moment of pleasure.

Amazing what loves does, for it covers a multitude of sins. He protected them out of love.

Then God whispered, “I loved you enough to give you the freedom to choose between that fruit and my love. “